What if thoughts :(
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I've really been struggling lately with these horrible what if thoughts, of what if I don't actually love my boyfriend, or what if it's just easier leaving him, or what if I'm not with him forever. I have been with him for 6 years and love him more than anything and I couldn't imagine life without him, I don't know if it's like a fear of loosing him, but then I don't feel like I am fearful of loosing anyone. I also have bad separation anxiety with my parents (I'm 20yrs old) and I feel like I shouldn't be having any of these troubles at my age I just don't know how to feel love again and feel like my normal self. I'm on citalopram so I have 0 sex drive which my boyfriend is really struggling with aswell.
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I have slowly been increasing my dosage of citalopram so now am on 1 and a half and still don't feel any different so I think I will need to change. I have been to various counsellors, and cbt I found it was ok but it never really made me come out thinking I know what to do now, I got the 3 free sessions they have here In NZ so I feel as if I left still feeling stuck I prob needed more but it is really expensive. I have just started on the headspace meditation app so I'm hoping that'll help too. I just hate waking up feeling on edge when I know I don't need to worry about anything, but it's the feeling of being nervous constantly through out the day
Thankyou for your help xx
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I've been taking it for maybe 3 months now and it's been 3 weeks or so since I upped my dosage so would have thought I'd notice something better by now but the doctor wanted me to try upping it before going onto a different one which I think is what I'll do. Thankyou I have tried a few other forums but my posts never seemed to get proper answers so it's nice to feel like I'm not alone! Because it's so easy to get stuck in a mindset that I'm not normal or not myself anymore. Yep all here for one another Xx
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Aww that is horrible xx I know exactly how that feels
you definitely will break free of your anxiety or depression I promise you. I'm really struggling at the moment we had an exchange student he was from Germany for the past 6 months and I'm really really missing him which of course is making me worry oh well if you miss him so much it must mean you love him instead of your boyfriend. But he was like a brother to me so I miss him so much
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😔😔bless you. Its all you need right now, more sadness and worrying. Is this ever going to end ?
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Thank you😗im trying to stay positive. And Im thankful for this forum and people here 😗
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It sucks doesn't it, I'm trying to do that aswell, but sometimes I don't do it soon enough and I get so stuck in the worry it takes over, and I'm sure your probably the same or understand that too xx
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