What is one thing you tell yourself/or do that makes you see the light outside deppression?

Hi Ruby I made a 360 degree turn around about 40 years ago. I started exercising and walking. Next I started writing my thoughts and feelings each day. Then I started saying the Serenity Prayer every morning. When I get a resentment at people I don't dwell on it. That's a few of the things. Hope one of them might help you. Good luck. 

About 8 months ago my therapist recommended I start back to church, just to be around people, get out of the house, and it was free. After 28 TMS sessions I actually had the ability to give it a try. Had strong beliefs early in life but due to life circumstances had abandoned those, lost faith and lived early adult years as nonbeliever, which actually I was not. First attendance sermon seemed to be addressing me and my dark existence. Hearing invitational song "Softly and Tenderly Jesus is Calling" felt like a magnet pulled me down the aisle and for the first time ever I sobbed and asked God to forgive my years of doubt about not just his existence but my whole self. Immediate relief, honestly immediate relief. Listen to the song. Yes, I was weary, weary from 20 years living empty life in deep dark hole. Eight months later still amazed by the MIRACLE I DID experience. Depression will never be completely gone but I now know I am never alone with my dark thoughts. When they do reappear I simply ask God to help me fight Satan`s dark hold on my imperfect brain, express my gratefulness for his forgiveness of the life I lived for so many years which contributed to my debilitating illness I truly believed I would never be rid of. It will always still be there waiting for me but I refuse to ever doubt God`s complete love, compassion and forgiveness and know that will always pull me back into the light. I simply ask and believe then I am brought back from the living dead realizing I, along with God`s perfect love for me, will never completely consume me again. For the first time in twenty years I look forward to the dawn of a new day.

A couple of things helped me get out of my latest black hole that I was in since August, getting increasingly worse. One thing I made a concious effort to do was pray every day, usually at night time. I just asked God to please help me ~ just guide me or give me some hope. The other thing was I told myself that I'd been here before ~ feeling the exact same desolation and so unmotivated and uncaring about everything, and that it shifted eventually and I started to feel a lift in spirits before so I will again ~ it's sort of the law of the universe and I had to wait it out and listen to any guy feelings on what to do... so I did and now I am feeling better again, not 100% but much different to before because I didn't want to face the day, even if the sun was shining, I put my head under the covers and forced myself to sleep til 1 or 2pm as long as possible. Depression is a horrible horrible illness. I hope you find some help/relief in this forum. I did. Kind regards, Maria

 Yeah exercise makes me feel a little better I can't take it for the physical pain it hard when I don't get any sleep all the physical pains it taking a toll on my body i'm scared to take antidepressant that's what got me like this taking them without me knowing it no no I need them don't know what to do his headache is killing me and they're telling me it's stress no appetite I just want  my appetite back tingiling sensation on my right back side Throat pains testecal pains now I'm worried about the fourth CT scans I got rendition got me thinking Should I worry help please