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what is wrong with me im going crazy!!! is it bipolar????

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emlou1992
emlou1992

Hey

Im new on here this is my story someone please help/give advise.

Around 8 years ago when i was 15 i went threw alot of heartache due to a family situation. This then sent me into deep depressions i used to have panick attacks suffered with terrible anxiety. Had crazy spending sprees for the most stupid of things. Clothes stuff for the house etc it almost became where i couldnt feel relaxed unless i had spent money . In time this depression turned into anger. I would be very nasty to my partner at the time. Id be very agressive verbally. We split up years later and i then met the partner im with now who is amazing i must say. We recently had a baby who is 6 months old. After having him i was down but just thought it was baby blues. I was very emotional frustrated angry etc. We took a trip to the doctors who diagnosed me with postnatal depression in these last 6 months however things have got worse i can be absolutly fine and somethibg silly will happen like i cant find something and i totally turn into almost another person i start swearing at my partner get angry frustrated and then i go back to my normal self in a split second. Its scary its like i step out of my body i have server mood swings. Make unrealistic arrangments or plans but at the time they seem a great idea i constantly want to be out and busy.. Then there are the days i have no energy just want to sleep all day. Alot of this has been going on along time but it has become worse since having my little boy. Both me and my partner think this could be bipolar i have seen the doctor and she has told me to fill out a question-air and wean myself of my antidepressants wich are doing nothing for me and im on the highest dose. I feel so alone. Is anyone else experiencing similar things i just want to no whats wrong with me its taking over my life.

someone please give me some advice.

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  • lynne05476
    lynne05476 emlou1992

    Posted

    Hi,much of the above happened to me post natally and i got stuck on anti-depressants knowing that after a certain amount of time they weren't right for me, if anything it exacerbated my moods and behavoirs so i think gp has been great to support you weaning off them provided you are having regular follow up appts it is well recognised that anti-depressants should not be used for people with Bi-polar unless absolutely necessary.Gp needs to assesses you  for referral to a psychiatrist, i strongly believe a bi-polar diagnosis should only be made by one I'm trying not to be negative here because this was my biggest challenge,however i did get there in the end.Bi-polar is such a complex condition requiring specific medication again that i think only a psychiatrist should recommend and follow up when first diagnosed.Best Wishes L
  • Joeblogs95
    Joeblogs95 emlou1992

    Posted

    Hi Em,

    I was diagnosed with severe depression in April 2014 and at first was put on fleuxetine 20mg I was experiencing similar episodes to you, I explained to my gp that I wasn't always depressed and that I was having extreme mood swings, they then upped my dose to 40mg. After being trialled on it for 2months I told them that it wasn't helping and they then put me on mirtazapine 30mg, my gp says he's unable to make the diagnosis of bipolar, and just plain messes me around. There is no doubt in my mind you have bipolar disorder as do I. Be consistent and outspoken and tell them what you know About the condition and you would like a referal

    I hope everything works out for you :-)

  • justbeingme2
    justbeingme2 emlou1992

    Posted

    Lynne said it perfectly. I was feeling the exact same way. I could see me doing it...flying off the handle but couldn't stop myself. It wasn't after having my baby. For me it was after my mother died. I was so angry and couldn't get a hold of myself. I don't know what the doctor will diagnose you as having but I was diagnosed bipolar. I was right in how I felt but could not control my emotions in order to handle it properly. Medication and therapy has been my savior. Something I resisted at first. I've also learned that some days I will be a bit emotional and still get angry. However, my medication keeps me in check and therapy helps me talk about things that are upsetting me. I've lost a lot but i've gained a lot too. I have learned so much about me. Follow up with doctor and tell them exactly what you are going through. If you don't feel comfortable, get a second opinion. I never thought I'd be happy again. Don't lose hope and take charge of your life and health....you'll be okay. It's scary, I know. wishing you the best!
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