What’s wrong with me? Need advice. Need to feel clarity.
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Hello I am 22M, 135lbs, 5’10 Vietnamese from California. This all started around January that I’ve been dealing with severe anxiety that started from throwing up a lot after a night of drinking, then later felt depressed and nowadays from the moment I wake I can’t seem to get out of my head, seriously hard for me to think about anything else. Making it hard for me to relax! I feel some type of dullness inside my head kinda like brainfog. I don’t have a history for past headaches and have always felt relatively normal and healthy so I’m not sure if it’s psychological or neurological. However I did get a clean mri brain scan back in June, clean bloodwork, normal thyroid. So maybe i’m just fixated on my head. It’s hard for me to concentrate at times making me feel off. The games I used to play on my laptop feels weird now and I can't seem to concentrate on whatever i'm playing. I also get feelings of derealization and depersonalization. I’m not sure if I have a anxiety disorder, health anxiety(Hypochondriasis), incranial head pressure, cfs, ndph, functional somatic syndrome , chemical imbalance, adhd or something chronic. I just want this feeling to go away and so I can feel like myself again and have clarity again. I have tried meditating and deep breathing, a lot pain relievers(advil, naproxen), 5-htp, stress techniques, anxiety/depression vitamins, l-theanine, CBD, omega 3, aswhaganda , turmeric curcumin mostly everything I can get my hands on. I have smoked a lot nicotine and drank a lot. Maybe messed up my gut? I would like to add that I would get a small moment of clarity when drinking a lot by clarity I mean I feel like myself and the pressure seems to go away but this would only last a while until I feel off again, there would also be moments where I feel "normal" but I don't know what triggers it! This is affecting me mentally but I seriously love my family and friends but lately it’s been making me avoid them affecting me socially and mentally. I never felt like this before usually the stress or tension would fade but this seems to be persistent. Did I mess up something up in my brain? Or is this a never ending cycle I was so normal and carefree before all of this!
Medications I took:
Was on Wellbutrin for about 5 weeks seen little to no improvement in mood or anything.
Taking PAXIL atm. On day 13. I'm terribly affraid of having withdrawls from Paxil.
Have done a few drugs in my life like mdma/coke. Is there any type of medication that’ll help because i’m willing to try anything at this point to stop get me out of my head and for me to feel like myself and have clarity again.
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jan34534 Idkanymore
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sorry you are going through this. The worst thing you can do right now is drink or do drugs. Your brain doesn’t need that right now. Stress and anxiety symptoms can suddenly come on and linger for a while, including the brain fog. That’s just the way it works sometimes but you can learn how to manage it better by speaking with a counselor for regular support. You can do virtual appointments and they work very well! But stick to them even when you start to feel a little better.
be careful about how many and what type of supplements you take because they can sometimes interact in a negative way with each other. You should discuss this with your doctor. As far as medication goes, that’s something to discuss with your doctor and a psychiatrist is very skilled and knowledgeable when it comes to medication for anxiety, depression etc. that’s where most people get their medication for depression and anxiety.
make sure that you are staying hydrated with water. Dehydration will make everything feel worse.
right now you need support from a professional (s) who can help you manage the anxiety, supplements and medication, and help you get on the right track.take one day at a time and I hope you feel better soon.
Idkanymore jan34534
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Thank you for responding Jan,
I've been avoiding drinking and drugs right now for about a week now. I should really see a consoler or psychologist. I've actually emailed some psychologists but it's just hard to find a good one that accepts my insurance since it sucks so bad. I'm just taking any supplement I can get my hands on that'll help out with this mental tension. I know I shouldn't do this but it keeps me sane in a way I try to limit myself with the supplements and mostly take omega 3s and magnesium daily. I never spoke to a psychiatrist but my school's doctor recommended I try out Paxil but I've read a whole bunch of negative reviews on the ssri. I do try my best to drink a lot of water everyday and make sure my body is hydrated enough. I do believe I need a professional's help as well but it's hard to find one that's suitable for me. Thank you! I pray I'll get over this as well because at this point i'm just out of it and mentally foggy with tension all the time but again thank you for replying Jan!