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Hi there, I've been having this strange troublesome problem that's going on with my left ankle.
Some background info on the history of my ankle. When I was in Highschool, I got in a sports (soccer/football) injury in which my school's star player accidentally kicked me really hard in the foot. I couldn't walk right after the accidental kick since my foot just instantly collapsed and my friend helped me to the sidelines to rest. I didn't get my ankle treated right away since I'm an idiot and had a complex about over-acting that it hurt (but it did hurt, I just didn't want people to think I was acting hurt and seeking attention). Also, my PE teacher was way more interested in treating my classmate who was also a good football (soccer) player who got injured in a separate incident from mine. I got treated almost about 4 hours later(?) when I got home and my mom put some ointment on it and wrapped it up. By then though, my whole ankle just turned black and blue and it was really hard to walk.
I was supposed to rest for a couple weeks from PE while it healed but since I still had that complex about 'faking the injury', I prematurely joined PE again since the bruising had almost faded and it didn't really particularly hurt. But like an idiot, I tripped again and ended up spraining the same foot again. The bruising came back, but each time it got 'visually' better, I just joined PE class again, and I sprained it again. It was fine sometimes, but my ankle would just like crack to the side whenever it felt like it (even outside PE). Sometimes my other ankle (the right one) would also do the same thing, but it was less often. It's usually the left one.
Supposedly, I've gone to several doctors who said that my ankle was just fine. I went to get a CT scan and they said that nothing was wrong. I went to several doctors who offered different explanations: that I'm flat footed so I have a tendency to trip more, it's a sprain that never healed, I'm flexible so I trip, etc. I even got told that I was walking 'wrong' and it was the reason why I sprain my ankles so much.
Almost about 5-6 years has passed since the accident in high school. I really haven't gone to any real doctor to get my foot examined since then. Every treatment I went through didn't solve whatever is up with my ankle. My parents found a Chinese Doctor(?) who tried to fix my ankle when I went back home (to Indonesia, where my hometown is). He aggressively massaged my ankle (which hurt a ton and I felt like it made it worse because it ached a lot during his 'treatment'. He told me that if I trip after his treatment that it was my fault (which parents agree) because I wasn't walking right. I don't know if this made it worse, but I had to pretend that it got healed because my parents wouldn't let me stop taking the treatment since they had anecdotes of him solving their issues (my mother's back problem and my brother's shoulder). However, I couldn't stand the pain and decided that acting healed and never asking help from my parents again for my ankle was a better alternative than go through his massaging again, since it hurt so bad. I don't know if this is anything significant, but I wanted to include it just in case.
However, despite the treatement, every now and then I trip every so often and sprain my ankles (mostly left and sometimes the right). On some days, I feel my ankle (usually the left one) ache and if I try to bend my foot to the side (laterally), it hurts. Sometimes, on bad days, it would hurt when I bend my foot forward. It usually hurts to press the area where the bruising of a sprain would be, even if I haven't gotten a sprain recently and there's no bruise. It doesn't terribly bother me when I'm walking normally, but if I walk for long distances my ankle usually aches and I feel like I might trip sometime soon.
I want to go to a doctor now that I live on my own and see their opinion, but I wanted to see if anyone online could offer an explanation. Does anyone have an idea what's wrong with my ankle? I've always been afraid (because of this stupid complex I have) that I was subconsciously trying to get attention and pity from others by faking(?) spraining my ankle. I still have memories of various doctors in the past tell me that nothing was wrong, so I'm worried maybe I'm just making this bigger than it needs to be.
Help and advice would be much appreciated.
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