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A "once you pop you can't stop" kind of food?
My mum bought a massive bag of peanuts last night and peanuts are probably my worst one.
My parents don't know I'm on orlistat as they're not the most understanding of my issues with food/weight. Had an eating disorder (a form of bulimia) which I am trying my best to overcome and they couldn't understand how sensitive I was about some stuff they'd say to me about food, my body and so on.
Went on a contraceptive last year and my weight went up a fair amount, so have been trying to lose weight without resorting to starving myself and taking dangerous pills. I still have many issues related to bulimia, the long lasting mental effect it has on you. However I really wanted to try not to go back down that road as it has too much control over my life still, and I didn't want to go back to it at it's worst.
Was getting nowhere doing all the right things which was very upsetting to me because it was the first time in my life I could actually do the right things. Exercising a great deal despite problems(vigorous exercise is difficult for me as I was born with a duffed knee basically). Eating as healthily as I have ever in my whole life too. I have a severe texture aversion problem and I'm very limited in what I can eat because of this. Recently learned I can have spinach and kale and carrots as long as they are in a smoothie. So I was getting a sudden injection of great healthy things and exercising and nothing had changed after months of hard work. It was very sad to me and at my wits end, I went to my doctor explaining the above. She was very understanding and gave me orlistat. I felt relieved about that as I didn't think, due to my eating disorder problems, that I would be given it.
I've been doing my best to follow the rules although I keep getting a bit confused fat intake wise and have messed up a few times. I now understand what I am supposed to do. Weight has come off, not anything massive but given that I have messed up a couple of times I'm surprised any has. 3lbs down after a week of errors. Not to say I haven't had toilet trouble, although luckily I've not had any sudden surprise disasters.
Sorry for the life story, I have a habit of rambling.
I can resist mostly anything in front of me if I want to but dry roasted peanuts are the worst!! One handful turns into 10 handfuls. Pringles are bad too but luckily they're expensive and no one buys them really.
What's your weakness?
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