WHATS WRONG WITH ME?!

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I've been having the worst anxiety and depression because of my health anxiety. I had a sexual exposure and a week after I developed weird symptoms and since then I haven't been able to function. I've had 2 HIV tests I've seen many doctors but still think I have an STD. Mostly scared and worried if I have herpes, HPV, or HIV. Everyday for the past 3 months I've been researching 24/7 on these things. A lot of places say that a negative 4th generation test after 28 days post exposure is a very very good sign and most likely to be HIV negative. But then I get to worrying about hpv and then once I stop and say I'm just driving g myself crazy and it's my anxiety it comes back. I say to myself what if it is something and the doctors aren't seeing it or the test is too early. I just want to move on with my life once and for all. I want to put all this behind me and stop worrying about every little ache and pain being a symptom. Has anyone gone through this? Should I just forget about it all and move on? I would really hate to infect anyone I truly care about. That is my biggest fear and what is the main cause of my anxiety and depression. 

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    God himself knows ive been down this path!!  Not been too worried about HIV as i tested negative by blood 2 month after exposure and havent developed any typical symptoms but definitely feel you on the HPV and HSV scare!  I have found a few members on here reassure me that your mind can be very decieving.  The more you read, the more your mind begins experiencing whatever symptoms you have researched. 

    What sort of symptoms were you experiencing for you to become so anxious?

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      Well the thing that started it all was a brown spot on the head of my penis that appeared a few days after the exposure. Then a few weeks later I felt as if I was coming down with the flu or a cold but after a day or two it passed then 6 weeks after I got a bad flu that gave me diarrhea, vomiting, a fever that only lasted one night and body aches. That worried me but mostly everyone in my family came down with the same thing so I just hoped it was a flu going around. I've always have had a white tongue which I think is oral thrush. I had the spot looked at by two different skin specialist and they both said nothing to worry about. 

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    Jonathan I feel you brother, I still feel the same way and nothing rotates this world more then me being who I was and never having symptoms. The situation we put ourselves is a scary one and messed up. I’m in fear of testing positive of herpes also for those same reasons and I have a lot of them. but then again I got a good friend that has it hs1 since a child but just the thought of something staying with your forever is frightening .  and to StuM I believe in that theory that the mind can be very deceiving, and a lot of what you said actually happened what ever I researched i actually experienced like a recent flu like symptoms to nausea to aches just by reading something online in reference three months after unprotected sex 
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    Ive been the same pal, spent hundreds on private doctors, own go visits, online tests, all came back negative, you need to stay away from google, the net has certain sites of truth but hundreds of thousands of nonsense and also half facts/ seemingly twisted facts which when read come across totally different in your mind, the tests these days are very accurate even at smaller window periods so I would say you are completely negative and health fine, it's Cause I know I ve laid in bed in a flap, can't sleep, google google google but there's only one outcome- major stress and anxiety, not good at all, occupy your mind with something else and the fears should start to fade

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