where have I been?
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Hi everyone,long time no post. Been somewhat under the weather for the past 3months In hospital twice , and had 2 nasty accidents. My health has deteriorated rapidly in that time. I am virtually chairbound due to the breathing or lack of it my legs are so weak that they 'give way' and I'm all wobbly I have been put on Oramorph (morphine) in small doses tohelp with the breathing but it does'nt seem to do much good - nothing does an ymore. I have also been referred to the local hospice as they may able to help the breathing a little more. 8 weeks ago I. had a small accident which left me with a badly torn leg and arm My skin is so thin I only have to brush against something. and I bruise or rip My legs, arms and chest are purple/black. It has taken this long to heal leaving me scarred. Then on Tuesday I fell on getting out of bed !ripping my shoulder open. The D.N now comes twice a week to redress it. Never ending!! I take a day at a time,or is it an hour. On waking I don't feel too bad but as soon as I move I can't handlethe breathing. I also need someone with me 24/7 to do all the fetching and carrying etc., but as I live on my own its not easy. My 'ex' has been here alot of the time but I can't rely on him and he is becoming more and more senile. Still life goes on. Sometimes I w onder how much more the body can take.Do you know VAn or Jaycee how Tessa is its been nearly 6months now and I often think of her. I will respond to some of your queries soon,when I can. Best wishes to you all. Love Carole
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Van
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I am so sorry that things are going so badly for you at the moment - I know it must be awful to have such breathing difficulties. I also wish you had someone with you - I really don't like the idea of you being alone when you are unwell. It is frustrating that we are all so far apart - I wish I could come and sit with you, talk to you, and do your fetching and carrying for you - women are usually much better at these things too, plus we know to get on with the laundry etc and all that needs to be done! :roll: Men can be pretty useless sometimes, even if they do mean well.
Sad to say we still haven't heard from Tessa. And yes, I still think of her too, as does jacee. I sometimes think of her when I'm gazing out of the kitchen window waiting for the kettle to boil, or doing a bit of washing up. I seem to drift off somewhere and ,daft as it may sound, I send her a loving message and warm thoughts.
Carole, when you reply to our messages, instead of answering each of us, just do one message to us all, so you can save time and energy. I will check in at least each morning and evening to see if there is any news from you - I hope to hear you are getting stronger soon!
How are you with your food by the way? Do you still have a good appetite - and how are you managing with getting meals and good nourishment?
I will end now, but will be back again later or tomorrow and will look out for you each day.
I send you my loving thoughts Carole, and will be keeping you in mind. I only wish I could send you my strength.
All my love, Vanessa xxxx :cuddle: a cuddle from me to you x
Jacee
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Yes, I had missed you and was wondering how you were getting on. I am sorry to hear you have been so unwell. I know from when I was bad how bloody frustrating it is to get up, only to sit and wait to go back to bed as there is nothing else you can manage so I really empathise with your current situation. Like Vanessa, I worry about you being alone and wish with all my heart I could pop in and see you. My best wishes and love to you anyway.:hug:
Unfortunately we have not heard anything from Tessa. I checked with the moderators but they had no other way of contacting her except on here and via her email address - both of which I tried several times. Like Van, I also think of her often. She was the one that really pulled me through the early days of deep despair and I miss her like crazy.
Likewise though your messages of support, delivered with your own quirky humour have been a comfort at times and an inspiration at others, and have also raised many smiles.
Are you still smoking? Have you made people aware of the limited amount of help and support you have? Have you got a little bolshie and told them what you need providing? Keep in touch more often if you can. I hope you feel a little better soon.
All my love
Jacee
xx
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