who the hell am i?

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Hi guys,

Hope everyone is getting on well. I have been on sertraline 50mg for 3 months now. Some times im great other times not so much. I hate not knowing how im going to feel from one day to another. I honestly feel like i dont know who i am any more. Even when i feel stronge it feels like a lie. Before medication i was angry,aggitated and resentful but i had been like that for so long it became me. Atleast before medication and the anxiety i wasnt scared all the time. I felt like i could yake on anyone. Now i just feel scared and i dont know what of lol. Any one elez have any similar experiences or issues. Thank you 😊

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    Hello marshmallowmel

    I came across this post while searching for some info on sertralines lowest dose.

    Sorry to read about your troubles, I can totally relate to you so you are not the only one!

    I've started to gradually lower my dose I'm now down to 25mg as I'm hoping to stop completely. I didn't feel any benefits on my initial dose of 100mg.

    I've also tried new ways to relax just little things I can do at home free of cost.

    I'm hoping to really focus on that while stoping meds.

    I hope you start to feel better and more like ur self soon.

    I would defo contact your gp for advice as they might suggest the best thing to help?

    Good luck.

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      Thanks vix85 I sometimes wonder if meds was the right choice. If it wasnt for the anxiety i could cope. I can deal with feeling down its the panic and uncertanty that gets to me. Thank you for your reply ☺
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    Hiya I feel the same I have more good days then bad days now and I finally can talk to me when I do have bad days but not knowing what tomorrow will bring is not good all i can say is try and focus on positives xxx
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      Thanks pepsii19.

      I literally feel like i have a dark mass handing on my back, sucking the life out of me. I feel like its apart of me. I call it my monster lol. Sounds creepy but its the only way i can describe it. iv never been like this ever in my life. im going to keep going with the meds and keep going the gym and fingers crossed the dark days wont be as bad. I just want to be well again 😩. Thank you for your reply x

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      Not feeling like ourselves is so scary but you are definitely not alone. We are all trying to get back to being the person we used to be. In the meantime, my therapist has helped me to accept each day as it is, even going as far as not to think in terms of "good" or "bad" days. Each day is what it is. Some would say a gift. We can learn from each day and take something positive (just as we can try to learn something even from the most obnoxious people we meet LOL). It's difficult to change the way we feel; if we could, none of us would choose to stay depressed or anxious. Sometimes, we can change our attitude to the way we feel. Some days I don't have the energy to manage this...but it's what I aim for! It's great that you are keeping active and releasing those endorphines into your brain the natural way. You are taking control of your life back slowly but surely. Don't give up believing in yourself. Let us know how you get on. We are hear if you need any support.

      Good luck! Digsby xx

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