Why again?

Aww dondon

I know exactly where your coming from let me tell you I do that's exactly what I meant when I said on someone's post the other week I'm not sure we ever get better.

We learn how to manage it. Drs spoon feed use we will feel "normal" to a certain degree, in yet to meet a single person that can hand on heart say I used to suffer from depression or anxiety but I'm all better now

The Drs may believe it's possible although I put it down to ignorance they don't know how you feel all they know is how well you can describe how you feel with the words within you volcabulary and how they perceive those words.

I believe it's a lifestyle we can manage it with meds for a short while then our bodies and brains decided to fight against the meds kind of like they build up a intolerance to the chemicals it's a mental illness after all it also explains why Drs keep switching the mess they prescribe

I'm afraid I myself have resided myself to the belief I'll have depression for ever I've just got to find the perfect way to manage it I've tried all sorts of meds excercise even suicide in the past

Prevention is always better than cure I'm sur you'll agree I currently don't take any meds I personally don't see the point the crashes I had whilst on them where so great ( it's not for everyone that so I'm not saying don't take any) I used the meds to get me to a point of as the doctors said a degree of normality then I used my numbness to start exercising at the gym and doing things for myself I stated a journal I write in when I start to feel low ( makes me feel like I've talked to someone) even tho I haven't it lifts that weight so I don't buckle

Everyday is still a mystery to me I don't know how I will feel however most days I get up and feel normal I still have small crashes you know but not to the scale as I was having them

If you need to talk you can always message me

Hold in on there dondon

To give up is the easy option, I'm coming out the other side of a bad episode of pain which messes with your mind. You take small steps each day, which will take longer but it won't take all your energy. Don't get frustrated about how long it takes, that will put you back, just focus on the goal and how great it is when you get there. Then only focus on that feeling and not what might ruin that feeling, as hard as it is and I do know how hard it is keep looking forward, never backwards. I hope you can take something from this and you get back to where you want to be.x

Otherwise I force myself to do something like painting which I dont feel a bit like doing but then as I do it i become interested, so maybe you could surprise yourself!

anyway my theory, I suspect that the good moods often high or very high are like natures break from you feeling bad, the brain says no you cannot stay in that state so it shifts but its compensational hence the unreal nature( for many) of it wen you feel better. Nature does try and cure I think, then you might say well why do we drop again? I dont think the higher mood can be sustained. Its very disappointing isnt it. Have you had any trauma or stress in your earlier life to give you a scar?

I once say a  television programme( American) I think it was cognitive therapy, but the therapist told members in the audience. That what they are experiencing, whether its emotional or practcally based is only for today ( the day in question) and you cannot know what you will feel tomorrow or thereafter, and that the trouble with people who get depressed or have problems they think it is going to be forever but we cannot know actuall which I is true isnt it.

YOu have gone into a downer obviously but if you have baggage from the past you need someone to talk to about it ( a lot)

I had 11 years 5days a week group therapy and individual therapy, and did it help you ask and I say yes it made me make a life for myself which I could not have done, it brought  me alive. However having settled down with someone I found being alone brought me down I was alright in company as I am now. I am always saying that the right meds help and I have been put on loads od differnt ones until finally I came upon one which leaves me feeling real but doesnt take away some of the depression but enough to make me cope and  lessons the anxiety I carry on mostly like anyone would except for literal isolation ( I have a husband and grown children).

I said Vitamin B3  is said to cure depression I am trying it, it make syou get a hot flush and you dont take a higher dose then until that stops happening then you increase incrementally. start with 50 mg go up even to 1000 to cure depression according to how your body takes it.I think I probably said to you to go onnto you tube and type in NIacin for depression or Vitamin b3 and I think there is nothing to be lost in trying it as its only a vitamin and you cant overdose. Hope you feel better soon Gill 

Dondons

You need to discuss your depression with your GP, He/She will be able to introduce you to a treatment plan and explain various coping skills

Try Relaxation Techniques and Breathing exercises, both can be found on the Internet. MINDFULNESS may help.

Hobbies and diversions may help with negative moods, I am a firm believer in this approach as it works for me.

We all at times feel our life has been a failure, to be honest we all go through this attitude to life and we all have to eventually understand we are not failures it is part of living and we need to move on and shrug our shoulders.

BOB