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Hi guys. Basically I have a sort of ritual, of such, where if I don't do something on time or a particular way, I have an absolute compulsion to self harm. I have struggled with self harm for years but this is pretty new. For example, If I'm not ready for 10:15am, for example, and I get ready at 10:16am I would need to self harm. If I manage to get ready at 10:20am, I would need to self harm twice, etc. The severity also changes dependant on what I'm being tasked to do. I feel like someone is challenging me to do it like another thing is if I flush the toilet and pass a certain spot welcomes a new self harm. I have tried doing the opposite; if I get ready ON TIME, i won't need to self harm etc. It hasn't seem to work. Does anyone else get this? and if so how do you stop?
ps I have asd,mdd,gad,tricho,agoraphobia
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