Why won't this just go away?
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Hi everyone,
Since January, I've started doing things that scare me, things I used to like doing but now, due to my anxiety, can't handle.
I went on a class trip for a week, far from home and everything I know.
I went skiing with my family, in a different country, which really freaked me out.
I performed in a class play (I thought I would have to drop out, my symptoms were making me feel like I was dying).
I survived all those things, even though I thought I wouldn't.
Before I actually did those things, I thought that if I overcame it and survived it without fainting (my worst fear right now), then the anxiety would just leave me alone.
But I did all those things and the anxiety is still very much here.
I am trying to keep myself busy, so I went to a job interview and got accepted, I start work first thing next week. And I am freaking out.
I'm just SO tired of this routine, freaking out, feeling like sh*t, and then overcoming. But I'm just so tired of the before part.
How long is this gonna stay?? It's been seven months since it all started.
I am 17 years old. I got my blood checked in October and everything came back fine. I wanna get it checked again but my therapist told me not to because it's just gonna become and obsession, I think she's right...
When will this just go away? I am seriously losing hope, what if I have to live like this forever? It sure looks like it right now...
I am not going anywhere and this whole year has been a waste, all I did was worry and feel physically awful.
I just want this to go away.
Thank you for reading this, is anyone else feeling like this?
xoxo
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Mindy27 ronnie27968
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ronnie27968 Mindy27
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But then one day I was so p*ssed that anxiety is controlling my life and it's so unfair that there are people who have to go through this and people who don't, I said I wouldn't let me be different.
But anxiety does still catch hold of me at times and I'm sure you're gonna get better.
You just have to really hit that rock bottom where you just say, I can't do this anymore, and you start fighting.
elaine75237 ronnie27968
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ronnie27968 elaine75237
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I know... It's so much easier asking yourself, why am I worrying, there is nothing to worry about, but the minute your heart starts beating fast, or you get dizzy, this is it, you're dying.
It's just that routine that bothers me.
The routine where I know nothing will happen, I will overcome, but I still feel different and not at all healthy...
And also, people say that the things that happen to us are the most unexpected things, and we constantly expect to die a certain way but we never do. And I've never heard of someone actually dying of anxiety...
I meditate at times, sometimes when things get too overwhelming I do a bit of yoga exercises...
I also go to CBT, so I also have other tools I could use..
Thank you so much and I wish you the best of luck!!
Xoxo
Guest ronnie27968
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ronnie27968 Guest
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I've tried a few techniques and the CBT seems to be helping me the most..
Guest ronnie27968
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why do you prefer CBT?
ronnie27968 Guest
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And also the technique is really helpful.. At least I found it very helpful...
Xoxo
Guest ronnie27968
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Have you tried any other types of therapy?
lucy170 ronnie27968
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Take care
ronnie27968 lucy170
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I know... But the minute the symptoms attack, especially out of nowhere. It's hard to actually do a reality check and say, okay, I'm okay, stop worrying, this is nothing.
You probably know what I mean...
I wish you the best of luck!
christina_68845 ronnie27968
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ronnie27968 christina_68845
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Why has it been so long? Do you go to therapy? Medication?
I'm sorry to hear that it had been so long for you, you really don't deserve this...
But I avoided everything for four months, and then one day I got up and said, this will not control my life, it's so unfair, and I started doing things just because every part of my body was telling me not to.
I just really hit rock bottom I guess...
I wish you the best of luck!
Xoxo