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I've been ill for 5 weeks. I've been ill ever since I had far too much alcohol in a night (3 bottles of wine). I'm a 19 year old from UK. The first few days after the binge drinking felt like a ordinary hangover, I thought it would get better and pass. To this date, 5 weeks later I still have lightheadedness/loss of balance. I notice it when I'm walking, I feel very unsteady. I've also got muscle weakness, short term memory trouble and occasionally a sore feeling at the back of my neck.
I feel I'm getting worse, as the memory problems and the muscle weakness are more recent. I haven't had any alcohol since that night of binge drinking. I thought coming off the alcohol would help my diarrhea but it has remained the same. The symptoms I have told except the neck pain are 24/7, they never end. The unsteady balance/lightheadedness has been there constantly since the beginning.
At first the doctors said it was alcohol withdrawal. I've been up A & E several times and they haven't found anything wrong, but they haven't done a head scan which I believe is the most important test. More recently, my GP has said it is down to stress and that I should load myself full of antidepressants. I'm convinced the doctors don't take me seriously as they have on record that I suffer from anxiety and depression. I have a feeling they think I'm exagerrating it. Overall, I've never been this ill for this length of time before, and I'm not exagerrating it.
I'm not sure if it's because the binge drinking has restricted blood flow to my brain, or if its a brain tumour or swelling, or whether its just stress. I don't know what to believe, as the doctors aren't taking me seriously. I also find it too much of a coincidence for myself to be ill for such a long period of time after binge drinking, if all it is is stress. I've been depressed for many years, sometimes more than other times but I have been depressed for a long time. I desperately want a head scan to rule out brain damage.
On the tablet side of things, I don't want to take further tablets as I've been on antidepressants constantly ever since I was 13 (I'm 19 now). I'm worried the tablets have caused improper development and I don't want them to cause further permanent side effects. The tablets haven't done me any good in the long term, I was more depressed at 18 after five years of taking antidepressants then I was at 12 and 13.
The antidepressants did do me some good up until I was 15 or 16, but since then it has been a general decline in mood; even though I did increase my dose when I was 17 to two fluoxetine pills and 15mg of mirtazapine. Before it was sertraline. By late last year I was as depressed as I was when I was 16, 17 and I came off the fluoxetine. I didn't notice any withdrawal symptoms in the following months. I'm gradually coming off the mirtazapine, starting 3 weeks ago. It isn't mirtazapine withdrawal which is causing me to feel unwell as I was ill before I started the mirtazapine withdrawal. I'm not sure whether to follow the doctor's advice and go back on mirtazapine and risk having further possible side changes to my brain and side effects.
I'm concerned that if its stress that's causing the loss of balance, muscle weakness and memory issues, I'll have brain damage or just generally worsened health. I feel hopeless, I can't seem to get a head scan done and I'm beginning to doubt I can actually help myself. If I have a brain problem, I'm going to get brain damage. From my point of view if I'm very stressed which I am, I'm probably going to get brain damage and if I go on tablets all my life, that'll probably cause detrimental changes to my brain.
Please help. I'm lost as to what to do as there doesn't seem to be a way out of this mess.
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