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I'm not sure if I'm on her for reassurance, a diagnosis or just to vent. So please bare with me.
I'm a 38 Year Old male. I suffer from health anxiety and OCD. I have most of my life.
About 8 months ago my latest episode started with a pain in my upper back. Since then I have thought I had Lung Cancer, Lymphoma, Skin Cancer and now I'm scared I have Pancreatic Cancer. I also think that my Doctors have given up on my and think I am just one big hypocondriac.
My Symptoms over this time:
Upper back pain - Has subsided now and is only there every now and then
Lower back pain - More of just a dull ache that's always there
LHS Abdomen pain - Again as above
Nausea - On and off, pretty bad ATM
Muscle Twitches - Mainly when resting
Reflux and tightish chest - Under control now after Endoscopy
Small amount of yellow in poo - This has been recent. Only happened 1 or 2 times
Bit of yellow at the very edge of the whites of my eyes
Bit of a yellow tinge on face (I think) - I sometimes feel its there and sometimes not
(It does make me sound like a hypocondriac)
Tests so far:
Chest Xray - Normal
Chest CT Scan - Normal bar some Osteoarthritis in Thoracic spine
CT Scan Neck - Normal
Bloodwork - All normal
Surface Marker Blood Test - Normal
Endoscopy - Gastritis, Acid Reflux, Hiatis Hernia
Colonoscopy - Banded of 2 hemorrhoids
In the past 8 months, I feel like I'm really letting my family down as I've been consumed with my health and have been a real mess sometimes. I know they support me, but how long can I expect them to pick up my slack??
The funny thing is, after my Endoscopy and they found some issues and with some medication to rectify them, I started to feel better within myself, physically and mentally. But after I had my Colonoscopy and I had some issues in recovery, (lots of pain and drop of blood pressure) my worry and symptoms really seemed to kick back in. Then the small amounts of yellow in my poo and I hit rock bottom again. I'm just so scared.
And my doctors seem to be finished with me. My last appointment which was yesterday, basically told me after I raised my concern for PC is that they have done everything they can for me and I need to get my health anxiety under control. (which I know I do). He said that I had a CT scan of my chest which was able to see the upper abdomen organs and the report said they were fine and the surface marker test was normal so I shouldn't worry. But I still do. I know these aren't the correct tests for PC.
I just don't know what to do. Do I see another Doctor? Do I ask for them to do an MRI on my abdomen? I'm just at a loss.
Sorry for the long post and ranting, but I just needed to get my thoughts out to some other independant people.
Sorry again and thanks.
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