Worried that I develop Fibromyalgia
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Hello,
For three years now I suffer from some kind of health anxiety. But my health anxiety differentiates from the "normal HA sufferer". I'm not afraid of catching a deadly illness like cancer etc. I'm more afraid of getting a mental disorder or a chronic condition like CFS/ME Fibromyalgia which literally ruins my life and I have to suffer. So my core fear is not the fear of death but more the fear of losing control. Beside that, I dont have any anxiety. No GAD, no social Anxiety, have a rock solid life (very good job, good earnings, healthy family etc).
Unfortunately, Im not able to enjoy my freetime anymore due to the constant worry what could be wrong. If im tired and fatigue (which is a result of the worrying), I think I have CFS. Then I do workouts just to prove that I dont get PEM, so I dont have CFS. I also get aches and pains in my joints and muscle tension in my neck from time to time that drive me crazy that I have fibromyalgia. Then I read on forums that people with Anxiety disorder are more prone to fibro as they are in a constant fight/flight/freeze response that makes their central nervous system go wack. And of course, there is no medical test to rule such conditions out. And even when I'm not in pain, I think "If I don't get calmer, this will be my destiny". Which drives me even more crazy. I got no prescribed with escitalopram which I'm afraid to take because of potential long lasting side effects like tinnitus etc. I'm literally trapped. Not sure how to escape this cycle...
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