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I've suffererd with my back for 7 years now. It took me 9 months to convince my Gp there was a problem, I finally got a scan which did show a disc bulge. I was given co-codomaol & referred to physio. The usual. But the pain just would'nt improve, turned into Sciatica and for years these episodes would become severe. I went round in circles, trying different medication, physio, saw a chiropractor, nothing helped. I was missing work repeatedly, that was a huge stress, obviously they wanted to hear I was getting better, As I would return for a few months, then I'd be in agony again. I decided enough was enough with my Gp, I even wrote to them explaining I need help as I'm going to lose my job. Still nothing, so I paid privately for another mri scan, still showing a disc bulge, it was decided I should try cortisone injections. During this period, I had the most severe flare up. I couldn't even walk to the bathroom, was given morphine patches and Could'nt leave the house for 4 weeks. I was dismissed from work before I could even have my first injection. Which failed to work anyway. So disappointing, frustrating, depressing. Another year passed in which injections were tried again, after the third failed attempt referred to another spinal surgeon. I explained how long this had gone on, how it was affecting my life and went for yet another scan. I presumed after our conversation that I was on the waiting list. But then recieved a letter to say my mri scan had'nt changed in 3 years, no surgery was required and I was being referred to a pain clinic! A week later I was rushed in with Ces, stonosis and had emergency surgery. The surgeon told me he does'nt know how I've tolerated the pain for so long & that the physio had been making symtoms worse. Luckily the emergency Gp who examined me the day I was having Ces symtoms recognised it and sent me to a descent hospital, otherwise I dread to think how I would of ended up. The previous Gp and hospital treated me appallingly. I'm left now with horendous constant backache, leg pain is also starting to return. I'm just so worn out with it all. It really has ruined so much for me, losing my job, causing financial stress, its affected relationships, social life. At one point I was drinking nearly everyday just to get some relief. I've been told I won't be able to return to my usual job, whatever I do will have to be part time, nothing manual, no sitting or standing for long periods. I'm just at a total loss as to what I can do. The pain is horrendous just doing everyday tasks, driving etc. But I need to do something as I've explained to my consultant, if only for my mental health. My confidence has been knocked, I'm depressed, isolating myself, the medication makes me feel like a zombie, I've tried weaning off tramadol but always return to it especially if I go out as pain gets too much, if I stay at home its more bearable but it is no life, I can't continue like this. Is there anyone else with a similar situation? Although the leg pain has improved, I've been told I'm just stuck with this backpain now, more surgery at some stage. But I need to try to have some sort of life/routine with it. How do you manage with permanant pain? Just pottering around the house all day? I can't take anymore of it. I need my life back, but I know it has to be a different one. I really need some ideas, motivation please. I hope I've made some sense, this has gone on for so long, too much has gone on to explain fully. Would really appreciate your experiences. Thank you
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