Yo yo
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Still early days for me, just over two weeks on 50mg and I am feeling up and down like a yo-yo. Some days I feel brighter and happy to go long walks with the dogs and some days I can’t get off the sofa. Yesterday was a sofa day, I felt anxious and sick to my stomach, didn’t eat all day and had a headache, I’m sure my mind was feeding the whole thing yesterday and today I am reflecting and wondering why on earth I can’t see at the time, I am actually doing this to myself. Perhaps it’s just a case of starting up the meds, some days will be good and some will be bad, it’s hard to accept, if I have a good day I want every day to be good and if I have a bad day, I’m convinced every day will be bad, it’s such a confusing illness and I am always searching for answers but never really getting anywhere. I really hate the days when all I can do is withdraw into myself to cope, they are scary days, thinking that I was always feel like this and just have to put up with it is so overwhelming. I want so much to believe that one day my anxiety won’t dictate my life but it’s really hard to believe when you have been plagued by it for years and years.
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paddy2801 laura36585
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The high sex drive has gone pretty much so I doubt I will stay on this medication.
Im on 2x50mg a day.
Sometimes I have energy sometimes I dont, I dont today.
It also takes so long to make a decision on this med, it leaves with the cant be bothered attitude its going to wreck my business.
Im going to give it one more week.
It is comforting to know lots of people have the same diagnosis with this med but I dont think I want to wear this crash helmet much longer its too weird.
Everyone has to deal with lows and anxiety and there are millions stuck at home that cant/wont go out. It is a personal made problem borne out of life experience and the only way out is through your own clear mind and teaching yourself/ourselves to rebrand yourself somehow.
When/if I give up I will post my journey back into the land of the living.
mrs_susan74280 paddy2801
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paddy2801 mrs_susan74280
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laura36585 paddy2801
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laura36585 paddy2801
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brenda53218 laura36585
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I felt just like you and Paddy, I am on 50 and in my 13th week. I was like you in the beginning, not knowing how each day was going to be. As of today I do have more good days than bad. I will still have the occasional anxiety but not like I was having. It seems to kick in when a stressful situation occurs, but I do seem to handle it better. So what I'm trying to say is that it seems to be working but might have to up it alittle. Giving the 50 until June to see if i have to up it.
laura36585 brenda53218
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Blondey laura36585
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Hi Laura,
You put it in a nut shell. I felt ok today later in the evening started to feel sick, Axiours and very down, I think it’s the meds as well as the illness itself.
Some days are full of happiness and joy, the next day full of sorrow and wanting to be alone.
I don’t know where I am half the time.
However, we shell keep plodding on.
God bless you Laura , remember where in this together.🙏
laura36585 Blondey
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paddy2801 laura36585
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I have today stopped so we shall see how I get on. For me I cant handle the sexual in-appetite.
I know I haven't probably taken it for long enough and I have felt miserable and woolly in the head. It has made me think differently. After 5 years of 4x cocodamol a day to deal with the lows I want to actually see what I am like `clean` as it were.
Folk writing on here are curious as to other folks experiences and it is a consistent pattern, the only thing is we are only talking with people who are experiencing discomfort in some form. I wonder out of the millions that take this med if a lot just put up with the symptoms or actually have benefits.
laura36585 paddy2801
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paddy2801 laura36585
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I did beat the coco though it was tough and I expect the setra will be similar and of course I dont know if I will succeed.
But I want to send a positive message out there that the mind is only in our own control and you are correct when you say that dwelling on the forums can really only twist your own mind into negative thinking.
Actually, paradoxically , the forum has given me the confidence to say hey hold on pull yourself together man.
When I did some CBT the mentor always felt I had the mental capacity to be strong. The mood chart I did was very enlightening in that the more I filled in your mood chart the less of the highs and lows I got.
As an aquarian and typically with a very creative mind it is easy to follow the wrong passage in thought processes. That is where my battle lies.
Alcohol plays a huge part in the mind degeneration and should never be mixed with either coco or sentra or any other similar meds in my opinion. I learned the hard way.
laura36585 paddy2801
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paddy2801 laura36585
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Been off a day got slight ringing in the ears and a musty head but I feel ok, very determined. I never thought I could kick the coco but using the setra as a switch did help. I am not convinced about the strength of the setra anyways.
I dont know you Laura but your return to setra sounds an emotional crutch as much as anything but I guess that is what it is all about.