117 days now

To put your mind at ease no your not the only one.  I went 9 months coming off slowly but felt like sh*t the whole time tried everything I did get to zero but just kept feeling worse and worse until i ended up in hospital but I probably came off quicker than you so you prob dont have to worry about seziures.  I don't no what to say to make you feel better.  I think you would be surprised how many are going thru what you are.   It's the hardest thing ive ever tried to do and at the end of 10 -11 months i simply went to my doc and said Ive had it i only have to options, to die or go back on these things, my tolerance had lowered but he put me back on and i was not just saying it to get what i wanted.  No life at all.

Dont drop any more esp before xmas, and dont feel like your weak if I were you I'd actually ask to go on a different benzo perhaps Clonazepam or xanax if you can, I promise you that will give you relief and you can begin to live your life, its a mental disease.  My doc said if you had  a broken arn would you get it operated on and put in a  cast?  I said yes, he said same thing something is wrong in the brain waves and delicate pathways so you need to treat it.  Suicide should not be an option so ask for help.  Diazepam is also not a very strong benzo its just longer acting you need something stronger at present get on to get on  an even keel and go from there but you nee some  relief and your brain and body (womans problem) needs a break.  Don't be ashamed, Doc's put you on this stuff so ask for help and write everythng your experiencing down,you forget once your in there, most Good docs are astonded by how you have been EXISTING only  existing and thats  no life.

Some reductions can take years and should be making you feel better, thats the whole point so im not saying stay on them for the rest of your life buy you need a different and stroger med.  PLS SEE YOUR DOC, you will be so glad you did. if you get a doc that wont help be strong and find another, and let it out the sweating the shaking the headache, no eating, wanting to go the toilet, digestion not working, I had paranoia, agraphoia, dont want to talk to any one, no sleep, badd thoughts and if your exp is like mine the list goes on.  Take care of your self, DO IT BABE NOW feeling good at xmas.

All the very best my dear, let me no how you go if you can.   Your not along and your not crazy.   Nicky.  Once you feel a little better Research it there are better ways of coming off.  xx

may names paul, mmmmm its a night mare is'nt it, 25mg you say youre stuck on how much were you on before, or if its always been 25mg then it is the usual stumble dose, this is when the physical side of it starts to kick in,the added affect of the mental addiction having to swapp its self over to not wanting valium is what i call "hell fire" theres no messing about with this drug it will turn you upside down a through you about like an empty tracksuit!!!!!!! But theres two ways you go at 25mg up to 30mg to take away the usual susspects, no sleep,pins n needle skin,a liitle but wont last forever youre body will son get used to that dose aswell

i feel youre pain shell really i do and youre right so close to xmas which is stressfull enough, i wouldnt say its the best time,i know this as am doing the same,hopefully for new year, i would contact youre GP no shame in it tell him xactly how and what youre feeling he or she maybe put you in touch with drugs worker,maybe ride out xmas put ah bit possitive thinking in the head about starting youre reduction after the year,maybe take away the stess ah bit and build youre self up to what is comming, you prob know youreself shell you need to come off these horrid little pills,but dont beat youself up about how you are feeling because its the drug not you,ha you prob dont even know who you is right now,good advise from frank reading that book is a great help theres also on called the dr Ashton plan, any book is good take youre mind some where else,make sure you also read up on the right foods and supplements to be taken

plenty protein,Vc,and general fresh good diet,also ah know its hard but dragg youreself out for a walk once a day every day even half hr, you can do this and the rewards will be superb belive me,best wishes and have a happy xmas

Paul

nicola iam glad to here that story about youre friend very amazing story by the way

plus there is alot i think to be said about that kinda approach youve got all the facts as youre friend obv did spot on, ive read about it,it tricks the mind which is hard to do but at 25mg the mind and brain are very vunrable to be tricked into not wanting then wanting thus not noticeing mmmm well you will feel rather edgy through this procces,but it works its a head on attack towards the valium and by god hats off to youre friend it must of been some hike that!!!!! well done mate,

i think some times like youre friend nicola and toyou shell you have to be in control of this youreself at the "stumble dose" 25mg i think yes with a very srong head you can take control and plan youreself now, it has to be a feel good factor in itself surely,like ah duno,say someone trying to loose alot of wheight gets there ass in gear and sees the wheight cominig off they start to feel in control and push themselves, WHY to be happy in the selfs,its no diffrent to them as afterwards they must keep it up which is another battle, tho id swap this for a diet and some exercise and day of the week,hope you know what i mean, folks this is no fairy tale far from it infact its "hell fire" the worst feeling possible, but at this stage coming through xmass and all that jazz, i think everyone deserves a patt on the back and ah bit of well done heres to a new start, and lets be honest here, who got you through such a difficult time of year whom those not affected dont understand trully, you did, you were the one who how ever which way you had to YOU!!!!!! done it because its a very lonely time and place youre in during xmas and newyear esp with children shell, ha xmas dinner in bed sounds good to me hun,

hope every one is doing good and keeping strong for 2015

love and peace to all

Paul