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Depression and regret over having had this surgery is taking over. 8 weeks ago, I had A&P, perineum repair, bladder sling, and back of uterus sutured in place and, using my own tendons/ligaments, to anchor to sacrum. Being patient has been difficult, but after 6 weeks I started to feel better. Anything I do physically, however, results in worsened and long lasting pain and pressure. I also have more pain, and swelling I think, on left side of outer part of my vagina. I tried acting a bit more upbeat and normal last weekend with my family - went out to dinner, light housework and cooked dinner on Sunday. Result this week is mild pain upon awakening that will become full tilt if I do much of anything. Laying on couch most of day and still have pain and significant discomfort. The fact that I am 8 weeks post op and recovery has stagnated over last few weeks is terrifying me. I worry that this is basically it....chronic pain/discomfort. I can't even take the dog for a simple walk. The price to pay is to high and long lasting. I do see surgeon this Thursday, 2 more days, but have lost optimism that my outcome will be good. I waited 13 years before having courage to go ahead with this surgery. I always feared that I'd gain new set of problems. Right now it seems that my fears are coming true and I don't know how to cope. My husband is losing patience with my misery and I can't blame him. If this surgeon doesn't have logical answers Thursday, I don't know what I'll do next. And each of the 3 times I've met with him, he has been in a rush and told me that he was out of time!
I write b/c I'm losing faith as reading on this site early on was so so helpful, but most women seem to have much reduced pain and ability to resume near normal activity by week 8. Or, at least they feel they are well on their way, which is precisicely what I do not feel.
I'm not just looking for someone to respond and make me feel a little better, but also to point me in direction of what to do if I do not improve over coming weeks.
My sincerest gratitude for reading,
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