Addicted to dihydrocodeine help!!

Hi Dannyb, I’m in Scotland mate so wouldn’t know, we get this service for free , I’m taking 20 a day and now taking other stuff on top of them, im so scared incase I die, I don’t want to die although when I have no pills deaths the best option, hard thing I’ll tell you, are you in the USA?

Hey Emma I'm exactly the same I'm so scared i die, I'm from Scotland also. What a rut to be in x

I was taking ten with my energy drink just to feel normal, went to detox it was bloody hard, hardest thing iv ever done, nearly lost everything including my life, my mental state is bad tho and if I’d known I honestly can’t say I would have quit, I think I would have kept taking them, life was easier on them, bloody drs giving me them the way they were are to blame but so am I for being a clown and taking them, I got a buzz tho, what else was I supposed to do? I’m struggling mentally now tho, horrible x

Anna I have been taking them for 6 years for a back/neck injury. I also am very depressed. I was taking 40 a day last summer. I didn't tell anyone. I reduced by taking 2 pills a week. I'm now down to 2 a day. And it was easy. Everyone's different, but you CAN do it. I hope you can find a way. If you need to talk and have some support, I am more than happy to help. It's crazy how it gets you. Good luck x

What a relief to read this. I completely broke down to my husband today. Told him absolutely everything. He knew I was taking some but didn’t know the extent of what it was doing to me. He has offered to work only Monday to Friday, no late nights and put our youngest into nursery every day so I can stay at home and only have to concentrate on getting well. Can you please reply or inbox me with any hints or tips on how you managed this? Any help would be so gratefully appreciated. 

Anna xx

Hi cheri how long did it take you to come down? Did you say you went down 2 a week? Well done 😊 You've given me some hope xxx

Hey I know you weren’t talking to me but seriously I’d consider not coming off them, the mental torture is brutal mate, I’ll not lie, even the hardest person in detox will cry like a baby, I cried with grown men every night, it was horrendous, iv done it tho and I’m 22 days clean, I went on lefexodine I think it was called to help withdraws now I’m on a blocker called Naltrexone, it’s really not good on your mental state, if I’d known I’d have stayed on them I can’t lie, please do your best because you can but honestly it’s the hardest thing iv ever went through, I only thought about physical withdrawal symptoms not mental, I’d masked loads of stuff the time I was on them and now the times came to deal with my crap, iv got an addictive personality so I’m struggling and always looking to fill the void but I’m back to work now and getting on but it’s blooming hard work mate, all the best.

Thanks for reying emma. Yeah im really dreading when im gonna end up not being able ti get hold of any. The websites are already on me ordering to many. This years been s**t already..i lost my dad on the 16th jan. He was an alcoholic but didnt have a bad bone in his body he was a diamond guy. Miss him alot. Anyway it sounds like youve cracked it tho getting off them..were you on DHC or Codeine? I dont think ill be able to come off em but i do know i need to calm down on em. You have any damage done? How old are you? Just wanna know if it takes years to damage your body or just a few years. Hitback.

Well done for coming off!! You should be very proud of yourself. Just hope one day I'll manage x

I was taking dhc and codeine phosphate? I’m 29, I can’t pee, my bowel is pushing against my bladder and my hearts beating st half the speed it should be, iv done the damage so I’m not bothered there’s no point, I enjoyed the pills and I’m having to pay the price, I wouldn’t come off them it’s easier to be on them, honestly, coming off will be as close to going in a grave as you will be, so sorry to hear about your dad mate but do it for him, get clean so you don’t kill yourself if that’s what u want, I don’t lie tho I only tell the truth and I found it bloody hard, how old ru?

I feel like I’d be like you if I got “clean” ..... like my mind would end up so messed up with anxiety and the daily battle to stay off them as opposed to just cutting down. My sleeping patterns a mess anyway, and god knows what damage I’ve done. I rarely take more than 8 in a day. But still it’s bwen going on nearly 2 years and If I try not taking any I swear I waken up literally crawling out of my skin. It’s the most horrible feeling ever. Not sure if everyone gets the same withdrawals but I start to feel this horrific feeling right through my body as If something is trying to push through my skin. And I feel so cold

Inside I get goosebumps. They don’t go away until i take a pill The knot in my stomach is unbearable. I can’t cope at all so I just give in and take a few. Well done to you for managing though. I envy anyone who gets off this.

Anna xx

Believe me please when I say you can, I was on 40 a day and felt like you but 100 times worse, u only feel like that because you can and you have a back up plan, pills, if you don’t have any you’ll get thro it, please look in to rehab, I went and I cried day and night, couldn’t eat couldn’t smoke couldn’t drink juice couldn’t use the toilet couldn’t sleep couldn’t do anything and I mean anything, do you know it was that bad I said to my mum I’d rather loose her than go thro what iv went through, that’s how bad it was, think of the worst thing you’ve ever dealt with in your life and I can assure you you’ll get thro this, I went to an addiction service near me and got in to rehab, you can do the same, I watched grown men on their knees crying struggling and wanting to die, I was like that too, it made me feel better tho knowing what we are all going thro, send me your number if you want to chat or email address I’ll talk to you, if you’re only on 8 a day try going to 7 for a month? 6? Whatever you can or even 7 and a half, please please do it, if I can you can, honestly, I didn’t realise I’d have to change my life etc my friends, my mental health would be this bad but I just have to live with it, I said to someone “it’s easier just to take pills” she said “of course it’s easier you idiot that’s the easy way out, that’s why people don’t change” and that’s what I needed to hear, I was just going to take the easy way out, please try hun I swear if I can do it so can you, it’s not easy tho xx

Hi everyone on this site x wow x i thought that i was the only one with this dirty little secret x i am on this and i have done for about 8 months but i take 60 or more some days xx this is the 3rd time i have ended up hooked on these and i have been into detox once where i came off them x i had loads of s**t waiting for me when i came out of detox in a positive mood xx i tried to rise above it but i ended up with severe anxiety and ended up on tablets for that x i managed for about 3 years or more and then my husband was put on DHC b ut wouldn't take them so i did x the temptation was just too great xx i buy them on line and my husband has told all my friends that i have parcels delivered but i just take them and put them in my bag and he thinks and so do all my friends and sister think that i am taking them x i won't be able to afford to take them for much longer so i am trying to cut down slowly because i know i'm not strong enough foe cold turkey xx i am a mess x overweight ..i smoke ....i drink and i take drugs x but i am a respectable 57 year old Grandmother so if it can happen to me it can happen to anyone Xxs please let us all try together to somwehow get free from this s**t and try somehow to find something to fill the void xx not drink or drugs Xx poor you all x i know how so very easy it is to carry on taking them especially if you have problems of any other kind but really after a while it ends up just adding to them xx live to you all xx

Don’t envey anyone hun honest it’s easier to stay on them and if I was single etc and no work etc I’d be right back on them but gotta keep clean and concentrate on getting my life back, not easy tho babe x

You’re not alone with the secret my partner still doesn’t know how many I took, I’m 5 weeks clean today but on a blocker called Naltrexone, ask your gp or drugs worker, I’m the same I am a respectable 29 year old woman with a good job and a husband a car a family pets money the lot, no one knew I was an addict, I had to come clean so had to go for detox before I killed myself, funny tho I want to kill my self more now I’m off them than I did when I was on them, crazy how life’s so much easier with them, I wish I could just take them for a simple stress free depression free life but I need to handle my depression without masking it with dhc, they’re so addictive and people don’t realise, seek help if you want to be off them but it’s not that simple, there’s too much temptation to keep taking them, I’m 5 weeks clean and every single day just think “if I just take two” but two will turn in to 22 and I’ll be back to square one again, all the best xx

Hi Alex x did you get your prescription for DHC from the dr today x i hope you did x it's horrid having that awful feeling x i have just enough to last till next Tues when my next parcel arrives x this just does my head in !! Xx what are we like Xx

Hi Frances sorry for late reply. No didn't get my prescription in time and had a hole 2 days without them which was really hard but obviously got through it. The worst thing was my stomach it didn't stip hurting and pretty sure that's the most ive with drawn before. I dunno how im gonna pack this in..ever . How's everything with You? Xx

Hi Frances thought i should write as I've been really bad with my painkillers as i ordered double so have been taking double the past couple days think ill take it down a notch now as i dont want to end up doing something unintentional. Hope everything's ok with you. X

Hi Alex x i know i'm a fine one to say but please be careful x i think i am gonna have to go to get some help from my local drugs hub thing because i am fed up with worrying from one day to the next about whether i will have enough meds to get through x i can't go on like this much longer ...or afford to x do you wang to do it toi ? Xx

Hi Frances. No dont worry i need someone telling me they worry lol. I do really want to say I want help. How ever ive only just been to a psychiatrist yesterday and they were no help Atall. Long story short because im not hearing voices or suicidal they won't put me on any anxiety meds. I felt like a d******d and I now know why i wasnt or havent been honest with them because they'll take the only thing that helps away so be careful Frances. Take Care x

Hi Frances.. We'll it seems to be looking up for me. I spoke to my dr like I was talking to any other person saying if you cannot help with my anxiety and legally meditate me then i will help myself....... So i have. I have a veru good friend who is by all means the best dr i know and he understand what im going through (as a young ex drug user myself) and he views my anxiety and pain the factors of my problem and has now finally put me on xanax which as your probably wear amazing for anxiety. I never thought ther'd be a doctor that actually cares. And thanks him. I feel amazing and halved my DHC down to one pack of 10 a day. If you ever need help with anxiety or pain then please leave you contact infor by emailing mE. this is completly ligitime i understand your abit weary and if so dont worry i hope your dr helps you. Take care. Alex x

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