Alcohol at home

hi

i posted earlier about how I dealt with a stressful situation (holiday double booked) without resorting to alcohol.

i am am starting to feel a bit of a fraud after reading your lovely comments. If I am completely honest, I think the reason I didn't drink was due to the fact there was none in the house, apart from two bottles of husbands beer.

we used to have a cupboard full of booze, but after several binges, I asked my husband to keep his malt whiskeys elsewhere. The rest I gave to one son to keep at his house.

how do you all cope? A lot seem to have alcohol at home and just drink at night. I don't want it in the house as its a permanent thought that if a crisis happens, then I can have a few drinks. 

So I've gone from feeling proud of myself to guilty. We have drink at weekends, but I like it gone by Monday. My husband can't understand, and really neither can i, why I can have wine in the fridge for a couple of weeks without even thinking about it, to searching the house and garage in the hope of finding anything to drink. I've even drunk mouthwash as I've been so desparate. I swore I would never tell anyone that and feel mortified about it. Why sometimes and not all the time.

My husband actually said a couple of weeks ago, that he'd find it much easier if I drank daily as he'd know what to expect. I'd cook dinner with a few glasses of wine, and finish the rest with my meal.

Rather than weeks/months of social drinking and can take it or leave it.

So do you all keep alcohol at home, or go out and buy it? Sorry for this odd post, but I do feel guilty that I only dealt with the situation today as there was no booze to have. It has made me think though, problem sorted without booze.

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