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I work part time, just a temporary job - if I start later on in the day e.g. 4pm then I won't get out of bed until 3pm and as soon as I get home I just get straight back in to bed. All I think about all day is being able to go to sleep and lie in my bed.
Today was my day off, I got back from work yesterday at 6pm had some food, got into bed at 7pm and only just got out of my bed now (6pm the following day).
All I want is to go to sleep and that be that. I was supposed to have counselling today but it was cancelled. I don't see or speak to anyone other than those at work briefly. I don't even want to keep fighting my depression anymore, I don't know if it makes any sense but, I no longer care about getting better, I don't care about a future. I want so badly to just be asleep, forever. It really is all I want, I crave it. No life, just emptiness.
I feel like I should try and do something other than just work and lie in bed but I don't want it. Though I'm sure it isn't healthy. I barely eat because I don't want food and I don't want to go out in public longer than necessary to the shop to buy food.
I've been whining on here for a long while about the same issues so if you've read this to the end I am sorry!
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