Am I falling out of love because of depression or depressed because I'm falling out of love?

I am piggy backing this discussion off of one that I saw was made a few years ago because I'm not so sure how active some of the people I replied to are still. I read multiple stories that were the same of what I am going through and just wanted to see if anything got better for them or someone going through something similar. Here's what going on with me:

I have been with my SO for 2.5 years and engaged for 3 months. This has been the absolute best relationship of my life and I can't imagine my life without him. About two weeks ago, it was like something snapped inside and I'm having all of these negative thoughts about our relationship. I've gone from having the "what if I'm gay" thought to I don't really love him and I'm just convincing myself that I do to I just need to let him go in order to save him from my "crazy" and also maybe if I did let him go it would stop all of this (even though I am sure I would feel worse). In my heart, NONE of these things are true but yet the thoughts are still eating away at me. All I keep thinking is that I just want to go back to two weeks ago when everything was perfect. I am on day three of 10mg of prozac and although I've been told that things are going to get worse before the medicine really starts to make me feel better, I just want to know that my relationship is going to survive and get back to the way it was. Please tell me that this happened for you?

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