Anxiety and negative thoughts try to enter my head while I'm actually calm and having a good time

Hi. You should see your GP asap an explain these feelings. You may need meds and therapy.  Don't leave it so long that you're in a crisis. And come back to this forum to tell us how you're getting on. Soon, other people will post messages to you - you're not alone with this - it happeens to lots of people.     Love Tess

I think it's safe to say that anyone with anxiety/depression issues has been or still is in the same situation as you. It finds a way to creep in and ruin a good day.

I remember at the peak of my anxiety.. (which usually hit at night when I was alone and super focused on it I would get disturbing thoughts.. just really random things that came from nowhere. I went through stages where I would be afraid of being at home at night alone.. I would have disturbing thoughts about intruders coming into my home.. I would have fear about ghost and I can tell you that during those times my eyes would play trick s on me and I would see little flashes out of the corner of my eye.. I constantly was looking over my shoulders thinking something would jump out at me..about a month ago I started to get big tree roaches in the house after some damage to my roof during a storm.. and I was seeing at least two or three a night.. I never liked them but I became so focused on seeing one that I was constantly checking all around me.. constantly cleaning.. it had become to hard to even want to live in my house because the fear was so intense.. silly right? Anxiety can do some awful things if you leave it untreated..and in many situations even if you are treating it you can still have many issues.. it can make you feel fear like you never have known.. it can make you think your physically I'll or dying.. it can cause you to become reclusive and never want to leave your house at all.. it can make you think your crazy.. it can cause real physical symptoms that are very scary and you will be convinced it's not anxiety at all.. I have had shortness of breath for days and even after testing I was still convinced it wasn't anxiety..it still occurs from time to time but I have a much better handle on it now.. I was on vacation at the beach when the shortness of breath make its first appearance.. playing on the beach with my kids.. having a wonderful time.. it hit and lasted over a month.. I had to leave vacation early because it was so severe.. it strikes when you least expect it to.. it can happen at anytime.. trust me it's not going to wait until your home thinking another it.. I have learned with me I have to keep busy.. I crochet and enjoy making things so when I feel short of breath or scared I started crocheting and I realize sometime later i feel ok again.. I sometimes start to have a Panic attack and I immediately call someone..no matter the time.. and talk about how I'm feeling it really helps to have a support system and utilize it! I still have problems but I know how to better manage it .. boy always but it is better.. do you have a support system.. this forum was my support system and sstill is because not everyone understands anxiety and to have a group of people who can relate and help does wonders! Do you work or have something you enjoy doing that could help when your starting to feel this way? Stop it befor it gets to a full blown anxiety attack.. I hope you get some help and remember we are here anytime!

You got some good info. here. Amanda said it all very well. Going to doctor if you haven't yet is a good idea, However, I never met anyone with or dealing with anxiety that didn't have this problem at some point. I am making good progress, but those thoughts and feelings still pop in. To some degree everyone has this happen at times, like the driver getting really angry at another. At some point, they have a choice to make, and it is a choice, whether to react to the feeling and try to run them off the road or whether to respond and back off when they realize where their mind or emotions are trying to take them.

When you get these thoughts and feelings, take a few deep breaths and choose whether you are going to react or respond. Reaction is knee jerk action, reaponse is thoughtful action. The mind can be trained to how you want it to respond. When I get the bad stuff, I say outloud, "oh no you don't, that's enough" or just plain "shut up". Then I focus somewhere else, maybe a walk, crossword puzzle, call a friend and talk about something else, etc. Whatever will turn your attention away from what your mind is trying to do. You are in charge of your mind. Over the years, i have learned from myself and my clients that it's kind of like training a puppy. It's going to try to do what it wants and it's up to us to say no and redirect it's attention. It's the same with children. We say oh no you don't and redirect it's attention. The puppy or child is not going to get it the first time, or the third or the tenth. We have to keep it up every time with oh no you dont. One day you see that they give up trying to get by you and behave. Then they come up with another one and here we go again. Well, it's the same with wild, scary, destructive, or whatever thoughts. As they try to do their own thing, when they can't get away with it, they try something else untll one day, glory be, they lessen and lessen and lessen. This is work, but remember it is our choice whether to react and go a little nuts or respond and start taking charge. I needed some help with a drug at first because it was so very overwhelming. The drug helped knock enough of that down that I could think straight and start taking charge.

It will take time and dedication to yourself. It won't happen overnight, but it will happen. I've seen it happen many, many times and I'm glad to say, I'm at the taking charge stage and am seeing results. I actually asked the people who know what I'm dealing with to let me know when they see me going into reaction, so I could consciously move to response. They have been a great help. I'm going to a counselor who I also asked to tell me when I was heading in the direction of "here we go again" so I could shift to "aha! I see you. Oh no you don't

If you read any of the mystics, spiritual teachers and many psychologist, you will see the same advise, maybe in different words. It is wise to have help including meds when needed, especially at the beginning of anxiety attacts or disorders.Training your mind should begin as soon as you realize you are able to try it out for a few weeks until you see that it is starting to work.

Good wishes and good courage. You can do this, it is your decision, your life. And finally, do your best to stay away from people and situations and tv shows and music, etc. that set you off. Later, not much will be able to do that, but for the first few weeks and months protect yourself from triggers, until you no longer react to "gunshots". ''

      Think of us as partners in taking charge.

Thank you everyone. It just some days are better than other but the bad days are a set back. I've over came it before. I was working out, eating right, working, and just living life but for God knows what reason I cold turkey the medication and after couple months it came back stonGerman. Now dealing with it again.