Anxiety has taken over

Did anyone suffer with almost debilitating anxiety while they had mono? Most of my symptoms are gone, I have had mono for 7 weeks. About 3 weeks ago I started having awful trouble sleeping and it hasnt gone away. It started with a few random nights of night sweats in early January, around when they finally figured out I had mono. I now have anxiety about going to bed, because I lay awake thinking something is seriously wrong with me. I'll fall asleep for maybe an hour but then I have an awful dream and I wake up having a hot flash. It's not even night sweats anymore I'm not sweaty, I wake up very suddenly and just hot like how I've felt during a panic attack. And then my anxiety is super high and my brain just races with scary thoughts and I toss and turn. My stomach has been upset from being in this constant state of high alert every day. I've had a few ok days but then I just go back to this feeling like a pit in my stomach and my stomach feels upset and gurgle which is also freaking me out. I have an appointment to start with a therapist next week and I'm hoping it will help. I just don't understand why this virus set me off into this awful period of anxiety and I dont know how to get out of it. I miss looking forward to bed time and sleeping more than 2 hours and not waking up hot and panicky. I know its anxiety bc I have some xanax and i will take half of one and feel a little better. I think its causing me to be a little depressed too. I just feel like I'm never going to feel normal. I also went crazy checking my body for lumps ans bumps thinking I must have some awful illness and I actually bruised my stomach from pressing on it. I've convinced myself I've had every serious illness possible through this virus. As soon as I get over thinking I have one disease, I start to fixate on a new one an that's what's keeping me in this state of super high anxiety. I cant calm down. I considered checking myself into the hospital for mental health problems but I have a career and twin babies I cant be away. Did anyone go thru anything this bad?!

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