Anxiety, panic attacks and constant worrying.
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I'm 22 years old with a history of severe depression. I have spent a lot of time in therapy which has been wonderful - I wish I could afford it at the moment because my anxiety is getting on top of me.
I have many rational worries - from if I have left the car unlocked to if I have left the iron on. I also have very irrational worries which I have never voiced out loud. One recurring thought is that I will accidentally cause a car accident. Sometimes I worry so much about this that I have to check my rear view mirror for signs of an injured cyclist or a car that has swerved. If I leave my bedroom to go to the toilet of an evening I have to turn the light on to check that nobody is hiding in the dark and waiting to assault me. It sounds absurd and I am so ashamed but sometimes I wake up and check the lock hasn't been broken because for a split second I feel as though somebody has been in my room.
Today I convinced myself there was somebody else in my (empty) house. I checked all of the doors to find they were locked and began to rationalise that they had found a way through a window. My first thought was to find something to use to defend myself...I quickly brushed this off.
I feel like I am no longer in control and it is interfering with my life. I experience crippling chest pains to the point where I have been hospitalised, I had to leave work on Monday with similar symptoms. I am literally sick with worry.
I'm sorry for the length of this post, I would just like to know that I'm not going crazy.
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jmcg2014 lou1991
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No indeed,your,not crazy,nor are you alone. Anxiety does all of these things to us, they are unbearable yes. But also very common. If,you can,deal with the root anxiety,either with,meds,or therapy these things will subside. Its a,terrible thing to,live with,,I'm,still trying every day
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Thanks so much for asking.
I still suffer with anxiety and have had two panic attacks since my last post here. I have also had to leave work on two separate occasions (unrelated to the panic attacks) because I had chest pains that were so intense, I could no longer concentrate.
I am allowing myself those few seconds of doubt to check that I turned off my hair straighteners, etc, and I then remind myself that I have turned everything off, locked the doors and can enjoy the rest of my day. More of a mental checklist than what you had suggested for me but it appears to do the trick.
How are you?
Lou
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