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So I have decided to stay commited to being sober. Whether I do it through councilling or The Sinclair Method I think alochol has to be a thing of the past. I think I had what I heard someone call The Awakening. So far I feel fine quite optomistic about it as I fully opened up to my husband & my Mother & spoke to my GP. I could be at present just living in a bubble & if so I don't want that bubbe to burst.
The part I am anxious about now if telling a particular set of friends. These are friends I perform with in a caberat dance group. These girls love to drink!! All our performances are based around drink. The performing is a hobby to us I also perform on my own separtley which to be honest I take more seriously & I have control over what gigs I do & do not want to do in the future. We do festivals throughout the year which can mean staying there 1 or 2 nights & its all party party! The girls kids are grown up as they had them young & 2 of them don't have kids at all so they party lke they are in their 20's. I have a 4 year old so I don't get out often but I do partake in these gigs & of course being a drinker the drinking.
They are due to come to my home fore rehearsals this week & I feel I need to tell them whats going on with me beforehand. I know I won't feel comfortble going away & doing the festivals 2 days at a time while they are all steaming. Silly as it sounds it will be hard. I like being part of the group its a laugh but if I missed these gigs I think I could cope. So do I tell them the truth? So they can organise posiibilities of me not doing certain gigs? They will be shocked to hear I have a problem cause to be honest it looks like I don't drink as much as them. My problem was secret drinking at home. Am I revealing too much? I was going to tell them I'm going through some hard stuff & see a councillor & I am giving up the booze as I was self medicating with it & that at present I have to make a lifestyle change & can;t commit to the festivals or just make excuses as I go along?
This is actually the thing I am most anxious about. I have another set of friends I have been friends with for 20 years & its not all based around drink & I have no commitment like this to so that will be fine.
Any advice for this silly anxious girl would be much appreciated. Facing sobriety in these situations is brand new to me.
Many thanks in advance
Sadie Dee xx
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