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I'm 21 and I have had anxiety and depression since I was 15. The past year my anxiety has gotten to an extreme level, and I have recently been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and agrophobia as well.
My moods are all over the place, I can be fine and then one minute something could happen, even the smallest of things and it triggers me and that's me set off. The only thing that brings me back down to a normal level is diazapam, which my doctors obviously don't want to keep prescribing me because they are addictive. I used to only panic when I was going into a situation with loads of people and I didn't have a toilet I could get too, where as now, I panic about everything, and I mean everything. I literally can not leave my house.
I feel extremely costraphobic when I have an anxiety attack, like everything is closing in on me, which then makes me worse because I can't breathe properly, I sweat, I can't focus and I get genuinely scared for my life. I have to wait a year before I can get a space to go to the therapy that I need and I can't handle another day feeling like this. I always have to have anti-diahrea tablets on hand, as well as a nose spray to clear my nose, propanolol and diazpam. I constantly feel the need to use the toilet, even when I don't need to and I can't go anywhere without wearing a thick sanitary towel.
My reason for this post - does anyone else get these symptoms or have these comforts? What can I do to try get better. Is there ANY advice out there that you can give me to try stop this agonising, exhausting, scary feeling of panic . My nurse is on holiday for another week and I'm feeling really stuck.
Sorry for such a long - and it may be pointless - post. I am just really at a dead end and I'm scared. I'm 21, I should be enjoying my life, not scared of it.
Thank you all in advance x
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