At the end of my rope

Have you seen a psychiatrist. The list of meds is pretty huge. Just need to find what's right for you. Prozac does it for me. A friend has had great success with cymbalta. Use with caution though as it can cause side effects And bad withdrawal in some. Just start with a psych and see what works. Exercise can also offer major relief , if you can get yourself to do it. Best of luck.

Hi....I'm going through the same thing...I'm here if you ever wanna. chat....Keri

Hi Celia

You are a lovely person and you can get through this. I've been going through a really tough time too and it's hard for me to say that because I honestly don't know if I believe it myself. But I have to keep telling myself it'll get better because I understand, hopelessness is one of the worst feelings in the world. Even the smallest amount of hope can bring you up from some of the darkest places. Even though it doesn't seem like it, it's possible to get through it. I've been there before, in such a dark place where I can't eat, sleep, or even get up to shower. I started Prozac and after around a year or so I felt much much better, not completely my old self, but an incredible difference from before. Lately, due to some stressful events I've gone back into that place and much of the time I feel as if I'm never going to get better. You're not alone in this, a lot of people understand how you feel and want to help you get better. Anxiety/ depression is a damn battle but it can be won I promise. There are so many treatments out there, from medication to therapy to diet/exercise and even more holistic natural remedies that help for some people. Everyone's different it's all about finding the right treatment for you. And please give each treatment a solid amount of time, a few months or so, before moving on to something else. I don't want you miss out on something that would've worked for you if you had just given it more time. And if you feel you can't talk to family or friends about it I would find a good therapist or you can even talk to me or many of the supportive people on this site. Please feel free to message me anytime if you need to talk. Just remeber that you're strong and can get through this! Take care!

Celia, 

first of all, I'm sorry you are in this situation now. I know how it feels. Here there's people who can understand how you are doing at this moment. 

I'll be short, as the others who wrote before me have already given you good advice. 

First, doctors only (psychiatrists mainly, but talk to your GP first in any case) can recommend AD medication. Your GP can write a prescription, but the psychiatrist is the one who can choose the right medication for you. Here you will find personal experiences, but you have to keep in mind two important things

1) Different people may respond differently to different ADs, even if they have the same symptoms. Moreover, the same person may respond differently to the same AD at different points in time. I, for instance, was OK with Paxil (paroxetine) for years, but now I had to change it to another AD. Usually doctors will prescribe one common AD, see if that works and re-evaluate in a few weeks. In your case, the choice will also be influenced by your heart condition, but you need not worry: there is such a great variety of AD medication that some will be right for you. A good psychiatrist (and even a bad one, I think ) will be able to guess in a way that there is a very very large chance that the first medication you get is going to be the best for your case.

2) You are right about your bf and family: "they don't know how you feel". That's perfectly normal, as they never experienced these symptoms. As you know, it's hard to tell how these things feel even when you are feeling them. So you can guess how much harder it is for people who have never felt this way to understand what you are going through. The fact that they cannot understand your condition does not imply that they are not willing to help you.

Look at this from a different perspective: you are very lucky to have a boyfriend and a family who love you at this time of your life. Use their help and their love and don't focus on things like "get over it". They wouldn't tell you this if they could understand your symptoms. But since they can't, there is no reason to get angry or be disappointed by them. I am sure they are doing all they can. 

Celia, above all, do not forget your condition is common and treatable. Going through it is hard, but when medication works and recovery is on its way, you will feel just normal and possibly even better than before. I promise I am not saying this to give you momentary comfort. It's really true, I have been through this, as many others here.

Don't hesitate to write in case you need any help. We are here to give each other strength in times like the one you are going through. All the best!

Hang in there, Celia...I think it´s important to try and get your Family and boyfriend informed on your conditions. Maybe give them a book or an online sourse. It´s okay. Many People just don´t know. If they really care then they should inform themselves. If they do, then their attitude towards you will shift. You could write a letter to them, trying to explain how this feels like. At the end, if they don´t support you and try to understand you, then Maybe they aren´t that good of a boyfriend and Family, sorry to say that. The hard times Show us who is really there for us. You Need People who love and support you through your worst. Keep us updated. Wish you all the strenght and Courage.