Bouts of Depression during ovulation and before my period
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I have pcos and I am starting to wonder if the condition exacerbates a problem that I have: A couple of times a month I experience small bouts of depression and anxiety, which I have worked out is related to when I'm ovulating and just before my period starts. I don't think that it's 'normal' PMT.
It varies in severity, but I feel like it's getting worse as I get older. I'm a total emotional f***wit during this time- anything has the potential to make me cry. I feel lethargic, but can't get a good night's sleep. I'm overwhelmed by multiple tasks and make mistakes on simple things. I get really frustrated and angry.
I can be surrounded by people that I love, but feel isolated and lonely. I feel needy, but I don't want to socialise or for people to see me- It's the time when I feel at my ugliest and fattest. I'm more critical of myself than at any other time and I feel paranoid that other people don't like me.
It could be a bright, sunny day, but if I can get away with it, I'll close the curtains and won't go outside. I won't even get dressed.
At the time, I don't feel like there's anything that can fix it or like I will ever be able to snap out of it.
I can usually hide it quite well, but I'm just going through the motions and Inside I'm feeling absolutely miserable.
I always forget what causes it or that it's coming, even though it happens like clockwork and, even if I did expect it, I wouldn't be able to prevent it from happening because my hormones hijack my body and my mind.
It only lasts for about a day or two and, like I said, sometimes it's not as severe as other times.
I want to find a way to control this problem and not feel like this because I hate it.
Most of the time I am a very optimistic and generally happy, relaxed and independent person.
Has anybody else ever experienced this and overcome it (preferably without the use of drugs, such as anti-depressants)? I haven't raised these issues with my GP, because I feel like if I mention the symptoms above, I will be prescribed anti-depressants, which you have to take every single day. I can't take the pill anymore, unfortunately. All of my PCOS symptoms have become worse over the last year, since I came off of the pill. I didn't find out I had it until then.
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pina57094 ajnc
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(i know this is a response to an older post) I wanted to thank you for this post. I've felt isolated on this matter before I found this post. I find myself losing my S**t during ovulation. I think it's been happening a while, but I got an app on my phone and began tracking my phases mainly wondering what on earth is causing this terrible passive aggression and bouts of melancholy. I thought it was pms but it seemed to come so early. I have many questions about this topic and I have a theory: I wonder if it is because my husband who had a bike accident has gone impotent and over the years now has lost his libido after he hit roughly age 50. This means that I do have sex, but it's only on occasion, and those occasions are something I really ''must work for'', if you don't understand that then you've never been with an impotent man. I'm not complaining, but I think because I'm over a decade younger than him, my libido isn't slowed, and having to put in such great efforts for sex at my age is kind of a bummer at times. Other times, it's great because I know I can go a full week without shaving/primping for sex. I just wish I could stop being such a b***h during this time. Before you tell me to get exercise, be aware I workout daily to my wii fit and follow along with a favorite youtube aerobics video 30 min each morning and night. I hope this doesn't last until my body dries up. What is going on with me?
Ctsweetie ajnc
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Hi. I have a short story that I'm hoping can help someone. Okay well it isn't short, but I am making it short. I had a great life. Beautiful, successful, thin, fit, never ever had a weight issue... whatever. Well in 2010 everything changed. I became severely depressed. After 5 inpatient psych stays at 5 different facilities, every antidepressant known to man, some ECT treatments and here I am in 2018 no better than I was. Well I decided to give ECT another try as I stopped early in the process originally bc i woke up early from anesthesia.....BEFORE the paralytic agent they give you that stops you from flailing around, wore off. So for about 20 seconds I couldnt breathe on my own or open my eyes or move. Needless to say, it sent me running in the opposite direction. Anyway, I decided it was time to try again and this time at a different place. So I had my consult and my pre-op physical etc and while I was waiting for my first ECT appointment, I had one with an OBGYN to figure out why in the past year I get suicidally depressed about 9 days before my period. I have my "normal" depression, but for 9-10 days every month, I start getting my affairs in order. After a lengthy discussion and tossing around of ideas (including hysterectomy) she decided to simply try a form of birth control. See....I'm a lesbian. Always have been. Never had a need for birth control. Never have and never will, want to give birth not have kids at all. Anyway, she gave me the Depo shot. It lasts for 3 months. I got it about 3 weeks ago and right now I'm at the point where I would be ovulating and starting to call a priest to find out where suicides go and I am SO happy to be sitting here to tell you that *knock on wood* I have not had a twinge of the PMDD and what's more is that it has actually helped my regular depression some. Enough where now I can put all my effort and strength into bariatric surgery and revisit ECT when I'm done and decide then if I still need them. I cant believe I'm saying this. I was 109 pounds in 2006 and at my highest about 155 in 2010 when hell came to pay me a visit. All components, including treatment methods for my severe depression, turned my life upside and on its ear mentally and physically. Right now I weigh 255.8 as opposed to about 150 in 2010 and 109 in 2006 and earlier. I now have diabetes, high cholesterol, high blood pressure, and the list goes on. I have only just turned 36. Anyway, now I can focus on the surgery which, if i do everything I'm supposed to, will hopefully reverse a lot of my health issues and may even really improve my depression. See the surgery can help a whole host of things where ECT just a couple mental things. So I am opting for the thing that will take care of the most. But the point of this whole rant is that if I didnt go to the obgyn (which I hadn't gone to in 6 years) I wouldnt be able to table the ECT right now. Who knew??? That depo shot has seemingly changed my life some. And to make a statement like that after suffering as long as I have been and losing hope and not being able to see the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel anymore.....is HUGE. P.S. if one more doctor or person who has no idea what I am personally going through, tells me to exercise just 30 minutes a day and it will cure me, I am going commit myself full-time to winning the lottery so I can hold seminars in every city and state and tell doctors to stop peddling that nonsense. Not everyone is created the same and will benefit from exercise. Trust me. I know. I have a semi-unique condition where if I try to exercise or do a strenuous activity such as shoveling or mowing the lawn or something, my face actually goes flat and I start staring and I get instantly more depressed sometimes to the point of tears and it doesnt return to my regular depression for about a half hour. Its God awful. ANYWAY. I'm so sorry for all of this. What I am trying to say is that 8 years later, I finally found something that is helping. The Depo shot. It is helping ME anyway. I cant speak for everyone out there. But if you are in the position/circumstances of being able to try it, PLEASE do. Best of luck.