I finally had the courage to go to see my doctor today...until I got outside the building. I sat outside for half an hour before giving up and walking away.
I see now that I am not going to be able to do it, I have tried.
How am I supposed to get the help that I need if I can't even force myself through the door?
I'm too scared to sit there in front of my GP. And to anyone thinking that I am just being negative..yes, I am. That's the problem I guess.
I have spent the rest of the day either crying, or staring blankly at nothing. I feel like I am just going to have to deal with it and be like this forever.
My partner tells me that going to the doctors is stupid anyway, because I am just very shy. I am pretty sure that it's more than that, but if he's not concerned then should I be??
Can anxiety go away on it's own? Because the thought of feeling like this forever is just too much.