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I know that I am in the wrong environment. I have been living in the wrong country. I have been living in Poland since late 2011 and I cannot seem to get the hell out of this horrible country. I came here because I thought I was going to start a new life with my ex. But that never happened. And now I feel like I am stuck here for the rest of my life, even though I am not even Polish. This place is awful.
The past 2 weeks all I have thought about is suicide. I dont want to live, and I feel very lost, I have no idea how to find myself or if there is anyone listening, or if there is anyone who can help me. I owe so much money to people, my landlady being one, and work is not helping. I am not living my passion nor am I happy when I wake up because I know the day will be filled with disappointment and loneliness.
I wish I was in Canada. I wish I was doing what I love which is acting, I wish I had someone to share my life with and not be so alone, I wish I didnt have to constantly worry about money and have new and exciting experiences.
But I am stuck in this place and I do not knwo why. Why am I being punished? What did I do wrong and what am I doing wrong? I just want things to work out for me. But really I just want to end this pain in my life. Is anyon listening?
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