Can only go one day without a drink !!!!
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I know I should stop drinking, I don't drink everyday buy can only go one day without a drink, I then convince myself I deserve, the little voice tells me , you deserve it , you work hard , I tried aa, but feel I didn't fit in as I don't black out, I don't drink into oblivion, but I do drink 7-10 bottles a week, I'm at the end of my tether and slipping back to depression fast !!!! PS feel better just writing that down
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RHGB ann08328
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ann08328 RHGB
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emma80268 ann08328
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Welcome. I am new to this site but found everyone so supportive. You are so right in that just writing our feelings down helps that pressure cooker feeling and I have so many wonderfully supportive responses.
I have previously tried AA and struggled with it. I also do not drink every day but the impact when I do drink is horrific and messes up my life. I am back attending AA and have realised that alcoholism may affect everyone differently but the results usually end up in a very similar vein - illness, loss, guilt, loneliness etc. I have attended meetings every day for the last 4 and have had 4 sober days. Just starting my 5th.
Good luck and keep coming back to this forum. It really does help.
ann08328 emma80268
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Robin2015 ann08328
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ann08328 Robin2015
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Thanks very much 😊
YLT ann08328
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However I'm now on 125 days since I last drank.
What I realised pretty quickly was that loads of people are struggling with alcohol, without necessarily fitting the typical description of an alcoholic. Also, that there is lots of online support out there which can really help.
Quitting is the BEST thing I've done in my adult life. The benefits are amazing and it gets easier and better. I'll never go back. Stick in there.
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Robin2015 YLT
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Misssy2 ann08328
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Glad you posted.
ann08328 Misssy2
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h1954 ann08328
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peter30685 ann08328
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It takes courage to admit it so well done. I wonder what is in those bottles?
I hope I understood you but are you saying that you don't fit into A.A. because you don't have black outs or drink into oblivion?
That isn't what A.A. is about and if it's strong liquor in those bottles, you're heading for your first black out if you haven't already had one in your sleep.
I'm sure we all know that drinking makes problems seem much more worse and more difficult to solve. Not many alcoholics feel at ease when they go to A.A. especially the first time. I know of people who go to A.A. and drink less than you and I know of (myself included) who drank much, much more.
There are ways to fit in if you want to............ I don't know of anyone who felt completely at ease at first. I didn't.
Best wishes, I hope you reply to me and maybe I can put your mind at rest about misconceptions about A.A.
Best wishes, Peter.
ann08328 peter30685
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Thanks for your support, yes I felt I wasn't that bad, with stories of homelessness, marriage break ups ect, I didn't have the best childhood and now suffer from panic attacks and I think drinking is a coping mechanism, although I know it makes me worse, I know I'm not living my life to the full, now my kids are older it should be time for me and my husband but it's really not. Sorry for babbling on I don't stop once I get going lol
Robin2015 ann08328
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peter30685 ann08328
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In fact, I revised for my C.S.E. exams in the local labour club just before I took the afternoon tests. What a state to be in? Luckily I did okay.
Maybe your drinking is a result of having anxiety and panic attacks?tHave you spoken to your doctor about it? It may be the root cause of your drinking or part of it?
Babble as much as you want or need to; get it off your chest.
All the best. Peter.
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