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My first post was on the mental health forum. I mentioned there that I was cutting down on alcohol and was aiming to stop 1 Jan.
Update is that I have now had 13 alcoholfree days, but have binged on two days. First binge was 16 units and yesterday was 10, I've also started counselling to deal with umpteen problems and so-called catastophic events that have happened throughout my life. This has brought up many horrible memories and have had quite a few nightmares. Thing is, is it all worth it? I am now in my sixties and been carrying this around for most of my life. I'm finding it extremely difficult to cope with my thoughts. Have shared most things from my childhood and teenage years with my husband - but some I just didnt want to tell him for fear he would think badly of me . But last night I did and wish now I had kept my mouth shut. His first thought was I'd brought it on myself. I'm devastated. If i hadnt had some wine i would not have mentioned it. Had counselling session yesterday and it seems to bring things back into my mind. The last thing I should have done was had wine.
Have shared things with so-called friends in the past nd its come back to bite me. Theyve turned against me and while I know that I really dont need friends like that, who ask you to share and show interest for all the wrong reasons, I feel sick at the thought of the things theyve said to me and about me since.... and that they know so much
trying to look on the positive side of things and its very difficult
thanks for reading
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