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Hi, I'm Rachel. I have had anxiety, panic attacks and depression since I was about 10, developed extreme agorophobia about 2 years ago, and discovered almost a year ago that I have Borderline Personality Disorder.
I'm 16 years old now (born March 7, 2000) and have been having stabbing chest pains and chest discomfort in the left side, tightness, jaw tingling, leg tingling, and arm tingling.
This all started about 5 months ago. The first time it happened was in May at about 3 A.M. I was convinced I was having a heart attack and going to die. I woke up my mom and told her my symptoms, and she told me it was only my anxiety, gave me 1mg of Klonopin and had me go to bed. I was still having the symptoms when I woke up, so I called her from work and asked her to please come home and take me to the hospital or Urgent Care to check my heart (I do not drive, due to anxiety, panic attacks and agorophobia). As a concerned mother, she came home and took me to Urgent Care right away. Since I was so worried about my heart, I wasn't troubled about leaving the house.
When we got there, the nurse checked my blood pressure and said it was a little high (I don't remember the exact numbers), but my mom said it was probably because I was anxious. They then gave me an EKG and said that everything looked totally fine and it was just my anxiety giving me those scary symptoms. They prescribed me Celexa (I think 20mg) for depression and anxiety and Klonopin for panic attacks. I dealt with constantly feeling like I was going to have a heart attack for about a week, but then the feeling slipped away. I still had anxiety on and off, but no heart attack-like symptoms. After a couple of months of taking my medication as directed, I ran out of pills. Due to my agorophobia, I didn't want to go back to the doctor to get prescribed more pills, so I didn't go back. I was off any sort of pills from about the middle of August to about 2 weeks ago.
About 3 weeks ago, right when I was about to fall asleep, I had a single palpitation that caused me to have a full blown panic attack that last about 5 hours. It was definitely the worst panic attack I have ever had; I was crying, having heart attack-like symptoms and was vigorously shaking and could not stop, and I threw up somewhere in between those 5 hours. I didn't wake up my mom this time because I knew in the back of my mind that it was just anxiety, not an emergency. After that night, I was having anxiety all day every day, and after about a week of it, I told my mom that I couldn't take it anymore and we needed to go back to the doctor as soon as possible.
2 weeks ago, my mom took me to Urgent Care once again (I insisted that there was something wrong with my heart and it needed to be checked again, so we went to Urgent Care instead of making an appointment). We went into the room and the nurse checked my oxygen, which was was 99%, and my blood pressure was perfect; 118 over 72, I think it was. That made me nervous though because I had anxiety in that moment and I hadn't eaten that day because I felt like whatever I ate was going to kill me, so did it mean that my blood pressure was usually low and it only seemed okay because my anxiety raised my blood pressure? No idea, but it freaked me out.
Anyway, they decided not to give me another EKG because the doctor insisted that I was fine (which I disagree with and was very disappointed that they weren't going to give me another) and this was happening because I got off of my anxiety medication cold turkey. They prescribed me 60mg of Prozac and 1mg Klonopin to be taken once or twice a day for panic attacks. I've been taking my medication as prescribed, but I've only been feeling worse. I feel my heart attack-like symptoms all day, and they are at their worst at night, so that's when I take 1mg of Klonopin which slightly calms me down (I don't want to waste them; I want to go to the doctor as little times as possible).
I haven't been eating very normally at all because I'm worried about my heart as well. Throughout the entire day, I eat about a cup or so of strawberries or pineapple, one packet of Quaker oatmeal, sometimes an avocado, and will only eat one or two small pieces of skinless chicken for meat (if my family even has that for dinner, sometimes I don't eat dinner at all) because I know all of these things are labeled as heart healthy. I am way too scared to eat anything that is not labeled heart healthy, but I am not eating enough, especially for my body weight.
You might be thinking "This girl is totally fine! She is young and her doctor said that her heart is okay." But the thing is, I am only 5'4 and 400 pounds, so it is only natural that I am so worried about my heart. I have been overweight my entire life, probably due to me not being very active. I don't eat very large amounts or very unhealthy food, but I am morbidy obese. I have never been very active, and I am extremely sedentary now due to my agorophobia. I wish I could just get out there and start going on walks to try and make my health at least a little better, but it is too hard to get myself to leave the house because I'm afraid of it.
I have no idea what to do at this point, and am terrified that I am actually feeling heart failure symptoms. While I had anxiety last night, I checked my blood pressure and it was 148/78. Not good!!
Sometimes, I won't even feel anxious until I get a stabbing pain or discomfort in my chest. Can someone with anxiety get a random pain due to anxiety, but not feel other, more typical anxiety symptoms (shaking, hot/cold flashes, upset stomach, racing thoughts) until they feel pain?
I appreciate any sort of help you can give me. Thank you so, so much if you read this entire thing, and I'm sorry if it was rambly!
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