Couldn't go to my own Brothers wedding.
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Hey
I really could do with some advice. I have been struggling with anxiety for over 3 years. I have a lot of problems with depersonalization(feelings of unreality) and panic attacks. Sometimes I find it hard to even go outside.
Today is my Brothers wedding day and I couldn't make it. I was all ready and dressed, got in my car drove about 10 minutes up the road and started panicking, panicking so badly that my legs were shaking and I couldn't drive. I actually could not move, I felt frozen with fear. Obviously weddings have a time schedule and if i'm not there then I am not there, they wont wait for me.
I had to come home, I am so so heartbroken, have been crying, panicking (very very badly) and I still cannot calm myself down. I feel truly awful and I do not know what to do with myself. I have barely had any sleep, due to being up all night worrying.
I love my Brother, we are so close and I know he is going to be gutted that I didn't go to his wedding. But most of all I am truly heartbroken, I feel like a failure and I feel so awful that I wasn't there for him on one of the most important days of his life, I think his new wife probably hates me :'(
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archemedes sarah07123
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Mental health issues are really difficult things to cope with, and I think that you were really brave even attempting to go despite being really unwell.
I realise that this might appear a silly question, but are you getting any medical help for your problem, because you really do need it?
archemedes
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Have you has the opportunity to speak to your brother and his wife, and if so how have things been left, and how are you feeling now?
kellys90 sarah07123
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jade256 sarah07123
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You're not alone with your depersonalisation and anxiety okay, I suffer from it too, I know too well the effects of it. We will beat it!! Take care Hun xxx
sarah07123
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I still feel awful, still panicking.
I have no idea what to do with myself, have no idea how to calm myself down. The things I do normally to help aren't working.
I just feel so terrible .
kellys90 sarah07123
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Paper_fairy sarah07123
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archemedes sarah07123
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sarah07123 archemedes
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I find the increased anxiety too much to deal with on medication. Although I know the side effects only last for a few weeks
kellys90 sarah07123
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sarah07123 kellys90
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kellys90 sarah07123
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sarah07123 kellys90
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archemedes sarah07123
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Although we might feel confident, this confidence is generally misplaced, meaning that we should only leave the umrella of care at such time as our mentors/ therapists feel they can do no more for us because they believe we have regained our full health.
Unfortunately when we opt-out too soon and then realise that we need further help, it can be a bitter pill to swallow when it suddenly dawns on us that we have to start again.
This like so many such things in life is something that we only learn from experience, so when the opportunity arises to become reinstated into the system we really do need to be learn from it.
Anyway good luck in the future, and I hope all goes well for you.