Crushing morning depression
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OK, so I want to know if anyonen else suffers from this. My morning depression is so bad, I am almost suicidal. It seems as the day goes by, the anxiety/depression gets a little better, and then by night time, I am my old self. I do take medication...lamictal, paxil, and gabapentin and klonopin as needed. Who else suffers from this. Do you ever get over it? Was a med adjustment necessary. I have working with my pdoc on this for 4 months. Please help.
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Laserbeam greentea30029
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You are talking about Dimural depression. Very common and I have it too. It commonly dies down during the day and by midnight it's practically gone. It almost makes you afraid to go to sleep because you know another morning is on its way. It's best to get out of bed to stop it from building while ruminating. I don't know if it will ever go away until you find a purpose for your mornings. I'm going to try going for a walk as soon as I get up. Good luck and remember that this is very common with depression. Hope you get better soon.
Al
ann55375 Laserbeam
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risperidone but im not bipolar. Thoughts welcome from those depressed too
greentea30029 ann55375
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Hi ann55375,
You don't have to be bipolar to be put on a mood stabilizer. They help many people who have depression with mixed features. Often times if you have depression with mixed features, you agittion will increase. I find it the most uncomfortable state to be in. I am not bipolar either, I tried risperdone, but it did not work for me. My doctor now has me on Lamictal with my paxil, but I also can take klonopin or gabapentin if my agitation gets bad. Klonopin often isn't strong enough. Doc may try to get me completely off my paxil, and only on lamictal because it takes away depression without causing the agittion, and restlessness.
ann55375 greentea30029
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greentea30029 ann55375
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My doc sees a pattern in me. I get very reactive to anything serotogenic. That is why we are trying the lamictal. Antipsychotics tend to make me psychotic. I did try Olanzapine, and it made me crazy for a few hours, and then settled me down, but sort of in a depressive way. So far lamictal has been the best, but I have only been on it for 9 days, so don't know how it will pan out. I do know that the once crushing waking anxiety didn't happen the last 2 days, and I don't get as amped up on the lamictal. Time will tell. Klonopin doesn't work as well to calm me down anymore so I take gabapentin prn, but just a tiny tiny amount. I actually have to take way lower than the lowest dose, otherwise it depresses me. If you are sensitive to meds, I would suggest you try half of the lowest dose. I have heard that some people who can't take SSRI's can take the older ones. One woman said she could never take an antidepressant, but she could take remeron which is an older tricyclic antidepressant. Anyways, it is a trial and error process, and for people like us it takes alot of experimentation. Hopefully you are in therapy too. I think I need it just to get through the traume of taking these medications.
ann55375 greentea30029
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greentea30029 ann55375
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I feel for you Ann. I have been trying 10 months to find the right med cocktail. I am not bipolar, but do have mixed features. This morning was the only time that I can actually see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I am still not there. Anxiety and panic is actually my manic side. I have had times where I was only depressed, I have had times where I have only had anxiety/panic. 'Then there are times when I have had both. I believe for me lamictal has helped the most. I wish I would have started on this one, and not tried any of the SSRI's, unfortunately that is the first line of treatment.
greentea30029 gill73026
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ann55375 greentea30029
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greentea30029 ann55375
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Ann, I have had a few good days, but no where near recovered. I get better at night, and before bed, feel pretty relaxed. I am no where near the therapeutic level. I am only on 37.5mg. The therapeutic level is between 100 to 200mg. I have to take things slow, because I am so sensitive. Lamictal is often tried when ssrI's fail. My doc wanted to put me on that first when the antipsychotics didn't work. I wish I would have listened.
ann55375 greentea30029
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greentea30029 ann55375
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Hi Ann, you could always ask. Why don't you want to try an antipsychotic? You can defintely ask your pdoc or lamictal. My doc is open to suggestions, but the final call is on him. I tried lithium first, and it made me really depressed. He dosed me up to 600mg, and had the worst anxiety and agoraphobia ever. I think since then my confidence in getting better has diminished. I think if I started with the lamictal it would have been a different nstory. My husband wants me to stay on meds. I tried for a long time with alternatives, and different supplements, but to no avail. Without meds, I was having panic attacks 3 to 5 times a day. It was scary, and I couldn't even sleep. I am not having panic attacks, but still have severe anxiety and depression, but for some reason it tends to lift at night. I had a night mare with celexa and lithium. I went into a deep dark hole, worse than when I started. These meds are scary, but it seems most people find the right med cocktail and sometime. I am praying for you Ann.
ann55375 greentea30029
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greentea30029 ann55375
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Ann, definitely ask your doctor about this. Zoloft gave me terrible nightmares and panic attacks once it turned on me. All drugs work differently for everybody. Antipsychotics work for some people, and sometimes they do not. If you want to try lamictal, give it a shot. I am not perfect, but I am more stable than when I was on other combinations of antipsychotics and antidepressants. My doc loves risperdal because it works really quickly, you can take it as needed. If you try an antipsychotic, you could try risperdal or olanzapine. It doesn't take long for you to know if you will react badly. I stll have issues, just not as many as I did when on the olanzapine. Anticonvulsants have problems of their own. For me too much can make me depressed. I had a nightmare on lithium (which is an anticonvulsant) and I have not fully recovered from it. It made me agorahobic and afriad t go to the store. I am not recovered, and still have horrid anxiety issues, but I think I have been traumatized by the drugs I have tried to get better, yet I know I cannot live without them. Ann I am praying for you. Call your doc and ask if you can dose down on the mirtaz. Keep me updaed sweetie
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