Crushing morning depression
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OK, so I want to know if anyonen else suffers from this. My morning depression is so bad, I am almost suicidal. It seems as the day goes by, the anxiety/depression gets a little better, and then by night time, I am my old self. I do take medication...lamictal, paxil, and gabapentin and klonopin as needed. Who else suffers from this. Do you ever get over it? Was a med adjustment necessary. I have working with my pdoc on this for 4 months. Please help.
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Violeta_01 greentea30029
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Hi there,
I can also relate deeply to your morning depression, it can be devasting. I wake up almost suicidal, tears, dread and panic. I notice I ruminate on my ex bf vividly as he occurs in my dreams generally before I wake, and we split up a year ago-it’s been off and on but I think this may have a part but I was doing better after the initial split so I’m just left confused if you understand...I guess letting him back in was a let down and I spiraled downward as I let him make me think my success wasn’t anything-that I had to conform to him. So I’m quite angry at myself.
However, this morning depression/anxiety has been going on for many months. I have been on 600 mg lithium and clonazepam at bedtime for 7 years. Cannot tolerate anti depressants. Routinely, I suffer from depression but this is heavy.
I had a terrible dream a couple weeks ago and it made things worse, at times I feel like a terrible person from dreaming what I dreamt as it’s now like ocd rumination which is new to me. Is this a build up of depression/anxiety? I tend to think so.
I think if I try and go for a morning walk it might help, it’s sort of nice sharing this on here as I don’t have many to talk to.
I really pray for you. I just don’t want to feel like a terrible person anymore, even though I am told I’m a good, loving person I sometimes don’t see it that way. Distorted.
Trying to think of happy things. ??