Crying in the mornings..

That;s it exactly - a feeling of doom and dread.  Just can't kick it

It's definitely a doom and gloom feeling for me as well, and it happens like clockwork every morning followed by lots of crying and anxiety, just wish it would go away ugh!!! And I can cry too out of nowhere, I've never cried so much in all my life than I have in this past year since all this began...

Thank you Michelle it feels so helpful just knowing there are others out there going through the same, cause I feel so alone with all this misery! And my 2 kids are grown and gone on there own as well, but I feel you when you say they're so over hearing you freak out.. My youngest tells me often can't you just be done with all this already I just want my mom back which makes me feel even worse. And even my 8 year old grandson asks me Nana why can't we just go to the movies anymore just you and i, that hurts so much, and he says is it your anxiety?? And I tell him yes when I'm all better we'll go again. Something about the movie theater and anxiety just don't mix, and I can't sit in there.. This is all just overwhelming and exhausting and sick of it ... You sound like your hubby is very supportive that's great! Just curious why do you have to count peri all over again when you went 13 months then just had another one out of blue, thought you cross over no matter what of no periods after 12 months? Me I will never know because I had the hysterectomy but still have ovaries so no periods ugh, very frustrating not knowing if I've crossed over, but then again I think if I knew I'd be driving myself even more coo-coo watching and waiting for the periods to stop and getting more frustrated if they returned right before my 12 month mark..take care thank you for sharing..

Just a thought .... could you have a movie night at home with your grandson?  Rent a movie, turn the lights out and eat popcorn.  He'll love it just as much

Awww thank you toffeecushion yes I definitely make up for it with movie night at home for sure, but I guess he knows the difference it's just all so heartbreaking when you have to tell them not today just not feeling well. So then I do other things like buy him a toy or make cookies, things we can do at home ?

I’ve not had another period since that fluke one

Mayb I am in full meno

I don’t know anymore!

I’ve now convinced myself I’ve got asthma!!

But I’ve convinced myself I’ve had many illnesses in the past

I have two grandchildren also it’s tough

We are all here for you

Keep talking it makes all the difference x

The asthma sounds all to familar for me as well, it started for me last summer, never ever have I had any kind of asthma in my life, and not even sure it is asthma, but I do know that when I eat certain things I feel like I can't breathe, but there is a lot of gas and belching so not sure if the feeling of not being able to breathe is a true asthma feeling or just trapped gas and belching, so I feel that same thing, it's awful whatever it is... Take care..

Michelle take the menopause test strips that you pee to see if you've reached menopause yet they work great, I order them off the internet, it's like taking a pregnancy test only it's a menopause hormone test for at home. My guess is your probably there if you went 13 months without a period.. I take them tests often throughout the month to help me know because of my hysterectomy and not knowing where I'm at in my cycle.. The readings fluctuate with your hormones but when I'm feeling crazy bad they always show positive reading!!

I dont have children but can imagine how hard it is when you also are worrying about them. I just worry about everything else. I found Louise Hays books useful to some degree and also Claire Weekes about managing anxiety. Hope all will be ok. Its good to have a place to share as its a very lonely period in ones life and few understand