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i would hope so. youve only been on the increased dose a little while.

im very down and tearful today. every hour is a struggle.

i find myself willing the day away so i can go to bed 

do you feel spaced out too? i feel like im in go slow mode everything is slow motion but the anxiety is still there. i have no appetite either, how do you fill your days? im off work sick so when kids go to school its a lonely time as im avoiding people with how i feel. could we chat on the phone would that help? and on this thread of course. just feel like no one understands this slog

hello how are you today?

im really struggling today can any one help?

hi lorraine,

so sorry to hear today is a bad day. what has been happening... what are you feeling? xx

oh, and sorry, but i cant private message you, so have no way to give you my number to phone. keep talking on here... im listening xx

hello i just cant stop crying and feel all strange and detached. how are you? xx

can you put some headphones on and listen to some music?

try deep breathing.... in through your nose for 5 seconds, out through your mouth for 7 or 8 . practice it. or do a deep sigh.... that sometimes helps.

anything that distracts you basically.... tv, youtube, tiktok, something light hearted...

its horrible when you are just so tearful and sad... but crying is ok. sometimes i feel better after a good cry xx

thank you ill give that a go, how are you today? xx

im pretty rubbish today. anxiety has been through the roof. i cant seem to calm down no matter what i try.

its exhausting.

how are you?

im the same really fed up with feeling like this, have you taken a diazepam? does going for a walk help you? weve got rain here all day so not managed a walk yet

no i havent taken any today. i dont want to take it every day, so i try to ride it out a couple of days imbetween.

no, going out makes me worse... i feel panicy and just want to get home... butthe dog needs her walk.....

does it help you to get out?

im really low today crying again is this normal for the early stages? it helps me to get out but im that low at the minute i dont want to go out and do the activities that i was doing before anxiety x

hey what you're both going through is pretty standard! I've been unwell since last June. It all takes the longest time! but you will get through! perseverance and keeping busy is key! I feel better today than yesterday although headache was still with me so I took migraine meds and anxiety is high but am just waiting for it all to change as that's the way recovery works! you are both doing amazing! its not easy but nothing that's worth anything in life ever is! ojh try get out for a walk as the anxiety needs an outlet. if you panic just breathe through it as if you run your brain learns if I go outside I'll panic. Lorraine crying is a good release so I wouldn't worry about it! Accept everything as we cant change it. it's really hard but it does help x

thank you lynda, you sound so positive i hope i get that way, ive had this since the end of july and ice had enough already i miss me 😦 x

its absolutely horrendous there's no words to describe the wretchedness you feel. I'm only starting to see teeny tiny glimmers and it terrifies me too as I cant remember being well! as quick as you get it, its whisked away as if to keep you down. this forum has been great and I intend to keep pushing. I miss me too and my life but it's all there just waiting! be kind to yourself! it is what it is! I'll probably be back down again later or tomorrow but I've had a sign today amongst all the s**t! important to recognise that! x

im so glad that youve had a glimmer of hope today, after an awful afternoon of crying and feeling dizzy i managed to pick the kids up from school we went to the shops and i ate something which is a big deal at the mo as i cant seem to eat a things. back home now and back to analysing how i feel 😦 i cant wait to feel normal aagain. the team im under one of the members of staff said i should start feeling benefits after 2 weeks but i just cant see hiw things will get better my mood is so low but before the increase of meds it was anxiety that was my issue now i have anxiety and low mood 😦 i managed to walk the dog today too, i have to do everything in baby steps i feel so stupid. even have to write things down that i need to complete each day or ill just sit and cry all day. i really thought that the citalopram would be working by now with it being am increase and not a complete new start but maybe because ive been on it for so long an increase is like starting all over again? how are you this evening?

thanks forthe encoragement lynda.

I do still get out, even though i get anxious... i force myself.

xxx

thats brilliant, how are you doing? xx

we have no choice I force myself to do everything all day every day! we can do this!! 😁 x

Lorraine you've done amazing! pat yourself on the back! please dont listen to anyone only yourself and your doctor! we are all different and a timescale can't be put on it. I'm the same with eating find it difficult. your journey is personal to you. I had to leave work as I've taken a career break. cant ever see me being able to go back! but know what that's life the universe may have other plans for me! analysing how you feel is mental illness I do it all the time too! I've been ok this evening still really anxious and horrendous intrusive thoughts! I just have to keep breathing same as you!! were not going to wake up tomorrow all better! we will get there! be kind to you! x

you really are a spitit of positivity thank you for the support on here, its valued so much. its almost like i feel like im living someone elses life if that makes sense, ive been prescribed an anti-psychotic because at low doses they are good for anxiety apparenlty but im too scared to take it. i ate tea tonight with the kids which is a break through. trying to chill now but anxiety is high and it makes my eyes funny like im sensitive to the light or my eyes cant focus? im off work my second month off now i was planning on a phased return next week but not sure i see that happening with the states i get into some days, im a mental health nurse and all i have learnt has gone out of the window, cant give myself therapy so waiting for primary care appt. do you receive any support or counselling? youre a strong woman for dealing with this for a year! xx

how is everyone feeling today.

ive had a bad morning. took a diazepam.. seemed to work a bit after about an hour. i just cant seem to relax at all in the morning... im hyper anxious. i end up dancing around the livingroom like a loony just to let off some excess energy!

week 6/7 on citalopram... im starting to think maybe im used to it as ive used it before, and its not going to work for me.

i feel so down ive been in bed a lot today cant see a way out of this misery, well done for taking a diazepam to help you through, my anxiety is with me all day at the minute i took the tabs which have been prescribed they calmed me down fir a bit but not long. what are you doing with your day? sending hugs xx

what meds are you on?

i had a friend visit for a couple of hours. she knows how bad i am, and when i had had enough company she was fine about it.

ive come to bed now to listen to some relaxation music.

im sorry youve been in bed most of the day... but thats ok... anxiety is exhausting, listen to what it needs. xx

give it time guys!! I'm v anxious too! keep waking up with a migraine! x

im glad you had some company, ive brought my son to his biking thing that he does im sat in car wanting to cry i mias feeling normal, meant to start phased return to work next week, im on quetiapine 25mg twice a day its an antipsychotic but used at low doses its good for anxiety its quite sedating tho, i had it after my son many years ago too and it helped then. maybe ask your doc about it? xx

aww sorry your anxious and with migrain all of this sucks doesnt it, anyone totally lost their appetite? if so what do you survive on? i feel so weak and tired due to not eating xx

i have absolutely no appetite. i manage a small bit of toast at lunch and a tiny bit of dinner. i then feel sick for ages after. ive also been needing a poo all the time, even though im hardly eating! i feel weak and tired.... but it will get better for all of us....

im sorry about your migraine lynda.... can you take anything for it? xx

im so close to going back to 20mg ive had enough, me and the kids are meant to be going away in 4 weeks with the caravan i usually tow it but even that is overwhelming me. well weve all survived another day, how do you spend your evenings? i have my fluffy pjs on with a de caf tea and about to watch james and the giant peach with the boys although i have no concentration so probably wont take much in xx

maybe youre getting used to the other med too... it can take 6 weeks. i googledit as never heard of it. youve got two things going into your system, and they both need time to settle.

you should be feeling much better in 4 weeks, try notto worry about it now.

i watched a couple of imbetweeners with my son, and now just on the ipad while him and husband watch footy.

thanks guys I took pain relief! you both sound like you are both making teeny tiny steps of progress! I feel a wee bit better then my brain says oh what if the tablets stop working n you go back the way!! ffs will I ever be able to relax again!! my ears ring so loud too with the anxiety! oh what it is to have mental illness!! your both doing amazing! keep pushing!! x

love inbetweeners, how old is your son? im watching the soaps now my concentration is sk poor though is yours? i hope i feel better at week 4 im on day 11 but it feels like forever. i feel better in the evenings so in my head i think about the next day and all the things i want to do...then the day arrives and its like im walking through treacle xx

thanks lynda. weve just got to keep pushing!

lorraine, my son is 17.

im exactly the same... feel better in the evening... lay in bed planning what ill do... wake up... jittery as hell, mope about... another day gone!!!

yes.... its bloody tough to have mental illness!!

do you have any input from the mental health team or anyone? im going to try and push myself out of my comfort zone tomorrow... i live in hope xx

me too guys!,better at night then next day is just so tough! head never stops!! x

night night both xx

morning both, how are you today? its raining so much here today, i have my boy off school with a cold so we are going to tackle his bedroom its a mess! i feel a little lighter today like a weight has lifted? not getting too excited tho as i know recovery comes in waves, still anxious too. managed some fruit toast for breakfast with chamomile tea. whats your plans today? xx

morning

im so glad you feel a bit better today.

ive had a bad morning . sick again this morning. im so fed up of feeling like this. its exhausting.

hello aww so sorry youre feeling unwell 😦 ive got bad sweats today and can feel the anxiety in my arms if that makes sense, bit dizzy too. are you able to get out for a walk at all? still raining here, got the fire lit xx

yes that's good Lorraine! another migraine again for me this morning! feel sick and constantly analysing how I feel n getting anxious that I go back the way! Ojh I'm sorry you're still s**t! I'm pushing through and going to see my friend. dont want to but I have to force myself to do everything despite the intrusive thoughts! wish me luck! heaps of hugs! x

youve got this Lynda, i do the analysing too alllll day long, just been for little walk with the dog. has anyone got the dry blurry eyes since citalopram? ive had to start wearing my glassess which i never normally do. were all in this togther. xx

yes I get that too! just got all the wretchedness plus low mood! recovery is so slow I just wonder if I'll ever get better! Thanks Lorraine x

everyday is like walking through treacle, long days but the evenings which a more manageable fly by, you will get better we all will in time, im going to have a bubbly bath tonight and face mask to try and unwind. anyone else dread the next day as our emotions and feelinds are so uncertain? xx

hope you had a nice time with your friend lynda.

yes, i dread the next day, as i know how hellish the mornings are for me.

me too, anyone get bad anxiety when trying to relax watching tv? i do dont know how to relax but just waiting for the feelings to pass which i know they will x

thanks didn't stay long as anxious thoughts overtake me but was nice to see her! hope you're doing ok x

I have it all day long with completely irrational thoughts of what will I do if I get unwell again and I'm not even better yet! so exhausting! Do you both get that or is it just me? x

yes i have the same thoughts and if i see a glimmer of hope i automatically think what happens when i go back down hill x

it's awful as you body goes into full anxiety mode!! takecare nnite x

night night hope you sleep well xx

night ladies. hope you both sleep well xx

miserable morning for me so far. my morning anxiety is through the roof. i took a diazepam, but vomited it back up 20 minutes later. managed a quick around the block with the dog... but feeling very anxious.

hope your mornings are better xx

hello so sorry i didnt see notification for this, how are you doing now? ive had a bad morning anxiety up to the sky managed to eat some toast and cup of tea, does anyone feel down too? my mood has dropped since increasing citalopram. went back to bed this morning after school run just wanted to hide there all day but got up walked to shop by my house and felt a bit better, on sofa now trying to relax and catch up on soaps. what are you up to? xx

im glad you managed a walk to the shops. its not good to stay in bed all day.... even moving to the sofa is better! thats where ive been!

i feel a lot better come 3 oclock ish..... its been happening like that for the last few days. intense anxiety in the morning... but much better late afternoon evening time.

youre bound to feel down, you are dealing with so much emotion. i feel down and cry all the time. xx

so glad your day gets better thats something to look forward to, i feel a bit better but still constantly analysing how i feel even when im not anxious, did school run and went to the shops for essentials, feels like im surviving each day at the moment not enjoying each day. going to burn some lavender oil tonight and watch a film with the kids. what are your plans? xx

sorry to hear that ojh! I've been v anxious too today! lots of shaking n nausea. no migraine so that was good. you have to keep pushing you're doing amazing! week 4 today for me x