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Sorry everyone its me yet again. Woke after a horrible night feeling like i've got a hangover, withdrawal I assume. Morning ok at work then started feeling as if i was on the inside looking out, wanting to run away just drive to anywhere not let anyone know where. ended up going for a walk tried phoning my cpn typical she's off sick so hung up. Cut a long story short attended new exercise class visited a friend then came home. It now feels surreal like a year ago, I'm watching Tv and my terminally ill husband is alseep in bed. Is this me beginning to come to terms with his death, I'm crying and wanting to get p***** to make this go away. When he died i know that was the end and he wasn;t comeing back i'd accepted that but I haven;t till now been able to talk about him or visualise him and now he's sleeping in the other room. I just don't know what to do. Run or talk to someone sorry folks I am finding this so difficult. Has cit been hiding this all away and now hit me between the eyes.
I'm so so sorry to dump this on you all.
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