Day 6

That's ok joblond. Everyone reacts differently to the medication and I know I've only been on them for 6 days. I've got a long way to go yet to see if they'll work for me.

It's a shame they didn't work for you. I hope you find something that does!

Thank you. Hope you start to feel better soon

Yes it does help,I just can't break the habit of thinking about it,I'm not as anxious but these intrusive thoughts really get to me

Can I ask what ur intrusive thoughts are? It's really good to talk about it, helps rationalize them, also when are they the worst?

That I'm going to lose my mind,that I won't be in control they can last pretty much all day sometimes

Are u only on day 12? It took me about 3 months at 100 mg to kick in.

If u can get clonezapam .5 mg it will make life so much easier, they have a 12 hour life so one tablet in the morning will last all day, they will keep u grounded until the sertraline kicks in.

It was a life savor for me while I was increasing my dose, u are not going crazy, that's what it wants u to think so don't give it power,, talking to other people is the best theropy I find, even if it's 1000 times a day u need to talk on this forum it will make u feel better and people will always listen, it's comforting to know people feel the same because no matter what people say, if they have not delt with this they just don't understand.

My thoughts are that I want to hurt someone else. Seriously, the scariest thing I have ever been through in my life. After reading up on intrusive thoughts, a lot of reading, it did help me calm down a bit because when I started reading about other people's thoughts I realized it was "normal" with intense anxiety. Don't get me wrong, I have never wanted to hurt anybody in my life, I'm a very caring person but when a thought gets in your brain and you're going through such intense anxiety sometimes you're afraid that there is a possibility of this happening. It's taking me a long time to get past this thought. Sometimes I can let it go

Hi Vanessa, it's horrible, I know, I had the same thing, u know down deep u would not hurt anyone but the strange thoughts come to u randomly and u start getting scared of loosing control and then start thinking why am I thinking this way, that's where the obsessive compulsive side kicks in, not being able to stop the thoughts and then obsessing about it, I found once again talking to people with the same problems helps more than anything, I like to say everyone is a little crazy but at least we realize it and have to ability to do something about it, making light of a bad situation always helps me, I always tell people I'm certainly nuts but at least it gives me access to the really good drugs.

Lol that's a good way to look at it. This is certainly a very rough journey isn't it?

I'm about to increase my dose now as well so this helps talking to people and reassuring each other we will all be ok,

I never would have thought you need a dose increase by reading your posts. You sound like you're at such a great place right now. How long have you been on sertraline and at what dose, if you don't mind me asking?

I developed panic disorder about a year and a half ago after my first panic attack and trip to the emergency room thinking it was a heart attack and then developed generalized anxiety disorder after that, I have been on sertraline now 2 years, started on 25 mg and worked my way up to my therapeutic dose of 100, it took about 3 months to get to that good place again,

Recently I have had a lot of stress with business and other things and can feel the anxiety creeping back in especially in the mornings, I'm also dreading up dosing and getting worse before better again so that's why I came on here, to make some friends to hopefully get me through the tough times ahead and also let people know we are all dealing with the same issues and to be strong willed.

I'm very lucky as I was raised around physicists in my family and always had no problem opening up about things plus my gp is amazing which helps so much, I like to think I can help some people here as well as I'm quite a rational thinker

I developed panic disorder about a year and a half ago after my first panic attack and trip to the emergency room thinking it was a heart attack and then developed generalized anxiety disorder after that, I have been on sertraline now 2 years, started on 25 mg and worked my way up to my therapeutic dose of 100, it took about 3 months to get to that good place again,

Recently I have had a lot of stress with business and other things and can feel the anxiety creeping back in especially in the mornings, I'm also dreading up dosing and getting worse before better again so that's why I came on here, to make some friends to hopefully get me through the tough times ahead and also let people know we are all dealing with the same issues and to be strong willed.

I'm very lucky as I was raised around physicists in my family and always had no problem opening up about things plus my gp is amazing which helps so much, I like to think I can help some people here as well as I'm quite a rational thinker

That's what happened to me. I was on 100 mg for 7 years, sometime in 2015 I felt the anxiety creeping back, mostly in the mornings too. I was naive enough to think I could handle it. Fast forward to May of this year, a forest fire burned our city and we were all evacuated, a lot of stress to say the least and I had a medical emergency about a month after that and well...you can say the rest is history. We all fight together, that's the only way to get through. Good luck with your increase.

Odd question? Are u from Fort McCurry canada

Yes I am

Was just asking because I'm from newfoundland so most of my family is there, I'm really sorry u lost ur home, I can't imagine that at all but really hope u have a new beautiful place to live.

Thankyou so much for the reply,I do feel better but the last couple of days I feel down again but I think it's the thoughts doing that I feel like every else will go apart from this beginning to think I will lose this battle

I have started my own forum if u want to join and talk there, u will not loose the battle I assure u, u just need good support and help during this time, if u would like a support person I'm more than happy to help u through it, if u join my forum we can stay in touch, it's called let's talk

Aww thankyou that's so kind,I will join your forum

I don't know how to join it

Yes that's the worry that the longer the thought is there there's more chance of it happening then that scares me more I'm only on sertralin 2 weeks and have seen big changes apart from the thoughts hope you are well

Be assured u will be fine, don't let it get the best of u, just everyday concentrate on the prize, look into either xanax or clonezapam to help in the mean time, it's the hardest thing to do but u will make it through, just one day at a time

They will fade with time. Mine has diminished quite a bit but i still fear them and that brings my anxiety back. You have to believe you will get better. You're just on 2 weeks and feeling a difference with other things, that means the meds are working. Hang in there.

Wow, such a small world hey? I am from Newfoundland as well. I didn't lose my home like a lot of other people did, so I was lucky in that way. I only lost my mind lol!

Well if u look at the positive side, one out of 2 is better than nothing. Hope u are feeling good today, are u front st johns

No, I'm from a little town on the north.