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Debilitating symptoms. Brain fog...extreme memory loss...spacey 24/7!

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TaylorMason
TaylorMason

The last year of my life has been a brutal one. At the age of 22, I am in the lowest of lows and I desperately need some help!

Here’s my tale:

About a year ago, a couple months after an extremely strenuous relationship, I began noticing that I was tired all the time…and all around, I wasn’t really satisfied. Don’t get me wrong, I still enjoyed my friends, and activities…but life just wasn’t as bright and vibrant anymore after a month of noticing this ever-present fatigue, it got a bit stronger. I would wake up each morning completely zombie-mode…and that feeling would remain throughout the entirety of my day, until my head hit my pillow that evening.

Initially, I suspected some form of sleeping disorder. I set up a sleep study, got my thyroid checked, ferritin levels, all the basics. Sleep study revealed I sleep just fine and all my other blood tests came back negative.

The fatigue and the weight of the world slowly got worse over the next handful of months, UNTIL I woke up one morning and everything escalated greatly. I felt completely stoned. I couldn’t think right. I couldn’t concentrate. I felt inebriated. I felt totally disconnected and spacey. I felt as though I had no control over myself. I lost drive and motivation. I lost a lot of confidence.  I always had an incredibly sharp memory. It was actually something well known about me to those in my family and friend circles. Yet, on this morning, almost all new information could not be retained. Things that happened earlier in the day, by evening, I felt they happened a day or two before. I could no longer recount the activities I took part in. This is possibly the worst of all the symptoms. The extreme short term memory. I have no context for time and I sort of feel like I’m just floating through life suffering.

For months I visited doctors getting tested by specialists. I visited a neurologist, infectious disease, I had an MRI, & I had about 20 different blood tests. NOTHING. My doctor literally said “I have no idea what this could be. I am beside myself” TOTES reassuring! I tried altering my diet entirely to organic and all natural. I continued my workouts and ran 15 miles a week. I tried sleeping even earlier. I tried all I could think of .

I have scoured the message boards and found a few people suffering from the same, but without answers.

I’m not sure if depression is the culprit, but depression sure has found its nasty venom-coated fangs into my veins. Tired, depressed, failed memory, no drive, scared…it’s no way to live. I want my life back.

PLEASE OFFER INSIGHT! I will be so grateful J

Sincerely,

Taylorsaurus Rex

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  • lilly15494
    lilly15494 TaylorMason

    Posted

    I don't know if this is the smae thing but I seem to have a mild case of these symptoms and I have noticed a slow progression over two years. What I mean is that I had really good memory, to the point where I could memorize whole chapters in books, now I have situations where I am doing homework or someone asks me a question and I know I know what it's asking but when I try to remember I feel as if I hit a wall of fog and it feels like it slowly gets bigger. I also feel disconected from everything, but it comes and goes in days, or weeks, or even hours sometimes. I also want to know if it is common to get irritated with small things. Also I am worried becuase I can stare at a blanc wall and feel a almost numb throbbing pain but I can think nothing. I am aware of everhting but I feel a thousand thouts but I am so uninterested in thinking or doing anyhtng to the point where I think nothing. Sorry I am very worried because the descriptions are very familiar to me and I want to know if this is just me or that I am not becmoig slowly crazy, 
    • daniel02718
      daniel02718 lilly15494

      Posted

      I know all of those feelings. I, too, used to have a great memory and could study easily, but now I can't complete a word finder puzzle without struggling intensely.

      I am only 19 years old, by the way.

  • myc1
    myc1 TaylorMason

    Posted

    Taylor, Having re-read your post, I'm wondering if you suffered a concussion at some point in your life? Symptoms sound very similar and a bad concussion leaves scar tissue on the brain. Right now, concussion is a huge part of the NHL and the NFL with so many hockey and football players suffering the effects of concussion 20 and 30 years later.

    myc

  • jmcg2014
    jmcg2014 TaylorMason

    Posted

    feeling spaced out is super common with anxiety.  the more you focus on it the worse it gets.  impossible not to focus on it though i know
  • Jacester42
    Jacester42 TaylorMason

    Posted

    Everything you've decribed are exactly the same symptons I'm having. I've been like this for the past 3 years, but I'm fairly certain that what caused it was the car accident I was in. For the first year I was really worried about it. I went to my doctor and he told me I had anxiety and depression, which I knew I didn't have, but I did what he said and took the meds he gave me for 2 months. Didn't notice any change, so he uped the dosage and that made it worse, so I eased off and stopped taking them. 

    I recently went back to my doctor about it because my memory is getting much worst. I redescribed how i was feeling and now he thinks I have ADHD(which I'm almost certain I've always had). 

    So in the year or more since this was posted has anybody found out anything more about this???

    • daniel02718
      daniel02718 Jacester42

      Posted

      For how long did you take the medications (in total)?

      I have the same issue, think a traumatic brain injury made me sluggish and foggy, and was told to take Celexa for six months.

    • Jacester42
      Jacester42 daniel02718

      Posted

      My doctor had me on 10mg of cipralex per day for a month, i felt no different, so he uped the dosage to 20mg for the next month, and it actually made it noticably worse somehow.

      Thats excactly what I'm thinking but my doctor doesnt believe that.

    • daniel02718
      daniel02718 Jacester42

      Posted

      Interesting. It makes sense that you did not feel anything for the first month, since antidepressant effects don't kick in until after a month of daily doses.

      I don't know why you felt worse after that, though. Perhaps the dose should have been kept at 10 mg instead of 20 mg. 

       

    • Jacester42
      Jacester42 daniel02718

      Posted

      what made it worse possibly could have been me putting to much focus into it
    • Jacester42
      Jacester42 rachel62244

      Posted

      I don't think so, i have some symptoms of ptsd like memory loss, not sleeping right, lack of emotion, etc. But I'm definitely not having any nightmares, flashbacks or self destructive behaviour, and my traumatic event is long past and it rarely enters my mind. sorry for the really really late reply :P 

  • sarah7663
    sarah7663 TaylorMason

    Posted

    Hey, my name is Sarah Hamad.

    What I feel is something I really hope no one ever feels. It is horrible. I feel like I can't remember a single thing that happens, it's almost like I have absolutely no memory at all (not short or long term) all gone. Even while writing this, I can't even remember what I have written in the lines before, and my brain is too shut down to fully express how I feel. It is debilitating. Waking up is the scariest thing, because the day demands of normal everyday tasks that I feel I am truly unable to do, yet I suffer through them everyday. My life is so nice, and the saddest part is that I can't enjoy it. This feeling I have is worse than the worst of torture.

    • AlexRyan
      AlexRyan sarah7663

      Posted

      Hey I completely know exactly what you mean word for word. I know it feels like you're the only one but it gets better. Keep your head and don't let anyone tell you it's depression or anxiety. Keep your ego and who you are. We will find a solution to itsmile If you know anything about it please message me and let me know. I feel the exact way for a year or two now I can't even remember at all

    • amycherri
      amycherri sarah7663

      Posted

      I know exactly how you feel you brought tears to my eyes and no one understands it
    • ana85762
      ana85762 sarah7663

      Posted

      Hi sarah i feel the same .did you find anything that helps pls let me know 😯

    • ana85762
      ana85762 sarah7663

      Posted

      Im feeling the same way .did you find any answers or anything that helps?

    • ana85762
      ana85762 sarah7663

      Posted

      Sarah i am exactly the same .please let me know how you are doing and if you found anything that helps.. empty mind absolutely no memories

    • lorph
      lorph sarah7663

      Posted

      hey, have you had any long term stress or trauma? i follow this thread for the same symptoms and have had fatigue, fog, dissociation for years. forgetting can be down to repression. don't want to scare you if it's not true for you but it can be the physical response to long term stress! get a blood test just in case because these symptoms can also be linked to lyme. best of luck to you))

    • ana85762
      ana85762 sarah7663

      Posted

      Sarah ,how are you ?please message me, im feeling the dame way..

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