Debilitating symptoms. Brain fog...extreme memory loss...spacey 24/7!
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The last year of my life has been a brutal one. At the age of 22, I am in the lowest of lows and I desperately need some help!
Here’s my tale:
About a year ago, a couple months after an extremely strenuous relationship, I began noticing that I was tired all the time…and all around, I wasn’t really satisfied. Don’t get me wrong, I still enjoyed my friends, and activities…but life just wasn’t as bright and vibrant anymore after a month of noticing this ever-present fatigue, it got a bit stronger. I would wake up each morning completely zombie-mode…and that feeling would remain throughout the entirety of my day, until my head hit my pillow that evening.
Initially, I suspected some form of sleeping disorder. I set up a sleep study, got my thyroid checked, ferritin levels, all the basics. Sleep study revealed I sleep just fine and all my other blood tests came back negative.
The fatigue and the weight of the world slowly got worse over the next handful of months, UNTIL I woke up one morning and everything escalated greatly. I felt completely stoned. I couldn’t think right. I couldn’t concentrate. I felt inebriated. I felt totally disconnected and spacey. I felt as though I had no control over myself. I lost drive and motivation. I lost a lot of confidence. I always had an incredibly sharp memory. It was actually something well known about me to those in my family and friend circles. Yet, on this morning, almost all new information could not be retained. Things that happened earlier in the day, by evening, I felt they happened a day or two before. I could no longer recount the activities I took part in. This is possibly the worst of all the symptoms. The extreme short term memory. I have no context for time and I sort of feel like I’m just floating through life suffering.
For months I visited doctors getting tested by specialists. I visited a neurologist, infectious disease, I had an MRI, & I had about 20 different blood tests. NOTHING. My doctor literally said “I have no idea what this could be. I am beside myself” TOTES reassuring! I tried altering my diet entirely to organic and all natural. I continued my workouts and ran 15 miles a week. I tried sleeping even earlier. I tried all I could think of .
I have scoured the message boards and found a few people suffering from the same, but without answers.
I’m not sure if depression is the culprit, but depression sure has found its nasty venom-coated fangs into my veins. Tired, depressed, failed memory, no drive, scared…it’s no way to live. I want my life back.
PLEASE OFFER INSIGHT! I will be so grateful J
Sincerely,
Taylorsaurus Rex
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djimble TaylorMason
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Hey Taylomason, I've had the exact symptoms your describing for 2 months now with no sign of it going away. Whatever it is, has it gone away yet, and what have you done to stop it. Please, I need help.
AWilliam djimble
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Hi djimble,
I have also been experiencing these exact symptoms for a month and am on the verge of being unable to get through each day. I'm desperately trying to find answers.
What triggered your symptoms? Are you able to sleep? Can you remember things?
djimble AWilliam
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AWilliam, I'm able to sleep just fine, I just a feel like I go by every day the same, they just fly by, I haven't felt real emotion. Normal occurrences that would get me excited or extremely happy for example, don't phase me whatsoever, they are just events now. I don't truly know what has caused it, but I have had 5 conclusions before this year.
This fall I got another one in which I hadn't told anyone about until May, when I saw a neurologist about my worsening symptoms, short term memory loss, mental fogginess all of the time, not being able to concentrate on one thing for very long, he just told me to rest. I visited him a second time 2 weeks after the first appointment and lied about all of the symptoms saying they'd all disappeared, so I could play soccer again (awful idea). The symptoms seemed to level off, so I'm used to them now, but they are still very apparent, a new one though is slurred speech and stuttering. Drinking has most likely affected my brain in a very negative way, as I had been drinking with friends heavily (partying) almost every weekend. The past two months I have realized that emotions and characteristics of myself simply are not there. I don't feel like myself anymore. I can go out on the weekend with friends and pretend to have fun, but partying and having fun with friends doesn't really affect me. I would call it depression, but it's not that simple...with all of the other symptoms, I feel like it's something else. I just want to go back to my old self. Is there anyone out there that can help me
rachel62244 AWilliam
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Iv had this since October 2014 so coming on 2 years. It's anxiety depression with derealisation. Mine come on quickly with a sense of things been unreal and like I was in a dream then the server anxiety started as I was so scared of what was happening to me. I feel/felt out of it, just through a empty motion of nothing, kind of like you looking back on yourself as a picture, it can always feel like your watching life through a glass screen as your distant. It's a very weird unreal feeling like your in a dream.
sergio53100 rachel62244
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rachel62244 sergio53100
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carolyn1970 TaylorMason
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I met a woman today that I was telling her how I feel and she said she felt like she was drunk for the last 2 years of her life and spent tons of money on trying to get rid of all these same symptoms and she has had acupuncture for the last 4 weeks and she starting to come out of it. I'm calling that dr tomorrow and gonna try it. I'll update if ya want
rachel62244 carolyn1970
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rachel62244 carolyn1970
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Netminder1976 rachel62244
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Me too, back when I drank I drank so that I did feel drunk... Now I can't stand this feeling, just want to feel normal again.
emilylawless TaylorMason
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Rockers emilylawless
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I sometimes get pressure headaches on top of the skull and on the sides above the eyes. Right now my visoon is real funny again which actually really is a concentration issue, this comes with a wired headache right at the center above the eyes. My memory is bad at times and attention is as well compromised. I have thjis 24/7 for almost 2 years now.
emilylawless Rockers
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Yes I get pressure so bad all over my head but right now it's really bad right on top.... And so hard to concentrate or do anything.... Te pressure is the worst and usually last for a couple days then will go away for a little bit and then come back
lindathepinda emilylawless
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HI Emily, is it pressure or headache? I've got this continuous pressure on the right side of my head, and had a hard time explaining to the neurologist it isn't headache. He still doesn't understand the difference, and thinks it's irrelevant and prescribed migraine meds (which I don't take).
These complaints are horrible and there seems to be an epidemy going on. I noticed we all 've got pressure on the right side of the head the most, and wonder if it could have anything to do with mobile phone use.
carolyn1970 emilylawless
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rachel62244 emilylawless
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emilylawless Rockers
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It's like sever pressure not any kind of headache.... And it's all over
Netminder1976 emilylawless
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emilylawless Netminder1976
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Right it's not a headache it literally feels like my head is blowing up like a balloon and needs to pop to release the pressure
Netminder1976 emilylawless
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I know the feeling. Really not sure what it is but I'm sure it's anxiety related as I never noticed it until my anxiety fired back up.
lindathepinda emilylawless
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That's exactly what I feel, like my brain is too big for my skull and wants to expand through my ears and nose.
ldibart emilylawless
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