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Debilitating symptoms. Brain fog...extreme memory loss...spacey 24/7!

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TaylorMason
TaylorMason

The last year of my life has been a brutal one. At the age of 22, I am in the lowest of lows and I desperately need some help!

Here’s my tale:

About a year ago, a couple months after an extremely strenuous relationship, I began noticing that I was tired all the time…and all around, I wasn’t really satisfied. Don’t get me wrong, I still enjoyed my friends, and activities…but life just wasn’t as bright and vibrant anymore after a month of noticing this ever-present fatigue, it got a bit stronger. I would wake up each morning completely zombie-mode…and that feeling would remain throughout the entirety of my day, until my head hit my pillow that evening.

Initially, I suspected some form of sleeping disorder. I set up a sleep study, got my thyroid checked, ferritin levels, all the basics. Sleep study revealed I sleep just fine and all my other blood tests came back negative.

The fatigue and the weight of the world slowly got worse over the next handful of months, UNTIL I woke up one morning and everything escalated greatly. I felt completely stoned. I couldn’t think right. I couldn’t concentrate. I felt inebriated. I felt totally disconnected and spacey. I felt as though I had no control over myself. I lost drive and motivation. I lost a lot of confidence.  I always had an incredibly sharp memory. It was actually something well known about me to those in my family and friend circles. Yet, on this morning, almost all new information could not be retained. Things that happened earlier in the day, by evening, I felt they happened a day or two before. I could no longer recount the activities I took part in. This is possibly the worst of all the symptoms. The extreme short term memory. I have no context for time and I sort of feel like I’m just floating through life suffering.

For months I visited doctors getting tested by specialists. I visited a neurologist, infectious disease, I had an MRI, & I had about 20 different blood tests. NOTHING. My doctor literally said “I have no idea what this could be. I am beside myself” TOTES reassuring! I tried altering my diet entirely to organic and all natural. I continued my workouts and ran 15 miles a week. I tried sleeping even earlier. I tried all I could think of .

I have scoured the message boards and found a few people suffering from the same, but without answers.

I’m not sure if depression is the culprit, but depression sure has found its nasty venom-coated fangs into my veins. Tired, depressed, failed memory, no drive, scared…it’s no way to live. I want my life back.

PLEASE OFFER INSIGHT! I will be so grateful J

Sincerely,

Taylorsaurus Rex

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  • Izazi123
    Izazi123 TaylorMason

    Posted

    Well I feel as if I am going through the same thing if not similar.

    This had been going on for quite a while now 2 months more or less. It happened after my Bestfriends quinceañera. The day after, I woke up and I felt so much fatigue, my parents had called me out because they wanted me to see something and the whole time I felt as if I wasn't really there. I was just agreeing with everything they were asking me so that I could just go back to bed. I tried to play it off so they wouldnt notice... It was horrible. I slept even more after that . Then like around 6 in the afternoon or around there I got up and I was feeling better. I've noticed that around the night I usually feel better. The timing flr this was horrible because my XV was only a week and a half after. In the little gap of days between her xv and mine , it necer went away. I felt so scared and I was literally praying for it to go away. These oast days have been the worst of my life...

    Some symptoms ive been having are the following

    - I can't think straight

    - I can't remember things very well

    - I am struggling to feel emotion

    - Lately I have been feeling much fatigue

    - I cant hold or initiate a conversation very well because I feel as if I am not there or I just dont know what or how to say it

    - Sometimes when I speak I know what I am saying but I feel as if its not me saying it.

    - I have all the anxiety symptoms

    And it really just sucks cause I can't be happy. I can't enjoy the things I used to love doing. My life has gone down a drain and I feel like I would be better off if I just died instead of suffering.

    This isn't the first time It happens, it happened back in 2013 , but this time it's worse. I recall that it happens more during the day and I am fine at night, and it's usually when I am in places with lots of light or in a store. I get this sudden freling whereI know what I am doing but it's like everything is going on around me and I get dizzy ...and there is nothingI can do about it. I've tried telling my parents and we went to the doctor but they told me it was just stress. This has been going on for two months, I don't believe it's stress. And my parents think it's just in my head. I've done a few research of my own which led me here. At first I thought it was anxiety because I always sort of knew I had that problem ...but it was never confirmed. When I went to my doctor she asked me if I have ever been tested , but I haven't . I've realized that this is much more than anxiety. And I am a very paranoid person. I just really eant to know whats wrong. I miss my old life. My friends. My family. The fun. I would really like to know whats going on so I can continue with my life.

    • MistaFina
      MistaFina Izazi123

      Posted

      You wrote this two months ago and I'm curious how you have been doing. Your testimony is spot on with mine. Id love to chat with you to compare stories.

  • alex03087
    alex03087 TaylorMason

    Posted

    Hi Guys,

    Suffering for nearly a year with these symptoms now. They also seem to be worse when I wake up, also when I'm tired at the end of the day like 4/5pm they get really bad like I've been drinking. This is every day it happens.

    I've had so so so many blood tests, water tests etc but not an actual check on my brain as my doctor says it won't be my brain ?! I also started suffering with back pain on my upper left but if my spine which uve seen numerous rheumatologist sand specialists who can't find a problem with me. I've had an MRi of my back.

    The thing is, I don't know if this is the same for anyone else, I LOOK fine and can ACT fine, even though I FEEL like I'm on my 4th pint of beer.

    I don't smoke or drink and never done weed or drugs.

    In told its related to anxiety called Derealziation which I could accept if it wasent 24/7 constantly and worse when I'm tired.

    It's also worse when driving or under strange lighting.

    I feel disconnected from my body, brain feels wrapped in plastic, I feel mentally drained no matter how much I sleep, confused, I feel the exact same as "Tipsy" when alcohol just starts getting into your system 24/7 (Haven't drank for a year and a half).

    But the drunk spaced out feeing makes you feel like your on another planet drugged up, anybody found anything yet ? I feel so ill and brain damaged ! But no one can see how bad I feel as I look "Healhty" on paper and all of my tests also say I'm fine !!! sad

    • Noisy6996
      Noisy6996 alex03087

      Posted

      Soy is your issue. Soy and soy lecithin gave me the same symptoms. Brain fog, short term memory loss, panic attacks. My entire body was shutting down. I’m gluten and soy free and have a new life. But be warned. Going Soy free is hard. It’s in everything we use for granted. My tipping point was chewable, loads of soy. Put me in the hospital. Doctors did many test. Lots of money later, family looked at me like I was a nut. It’s in your food. Your make-up, mouthwash, toothpaste. Cooking spray when making breakfast. In your shaving cream, in the disposable razor. In all of your drugs. In all of the power drinks, in allot of sodas. In 95% of the grocery stores. The wax that covers your vegetables, in Neosporin, in Band-Aids, in tea. In every form of fast food. It’s in your deodorant. Soy and soy lecithin is in almost everything made for the consumer. Its the cheapest of the cheap to produce. Its in every Bread in the store. In most chips, in all crackers. And no more eating Hersey’s
    • Noisy6996
      Noisy6996 alex03087

      Posted

      If soy is not your issues, it’s in your food and the products you use. I only was able to find out soy was my issue, until I did a food itemization. Start with the basics. Water, slowly add stuff.  vegetables, fruit, then add process stuff. I only figured it out, when I did the same thing. Decided to treat myself to 3 Hersey peanut-butter miniature’s. Hit me like a rock. It had no gluten, threw me off my no gluten binge. Man did that ever change my life. Who new soy could mess you up that bad. Then again it might be some other type of food source messing with you. Try the food diet. Water. Basic of the basic in food groups after trying the water, it took 3 days for soy to leave my system. Air born soy hits me in 8 sec. blood contact 8 sec. and two hours to flush out. Food intake, 30 min to affect me. And 24-72hours before it passes out of my system.
    • Noisy6996
      Noisy6996

      Posted

      becarful, some flavor water contains soy.
    • NightDash
      NightDash alex03087

      Posted

      I got this symtoms for about 6 yrs. This gets worst as times goes by. later on, you'll feel that you can't control yourself and feel hopless to handle your brain. This can be fixed by a real oriental doctor but a real oriental doctor are less than ten digit. I'm getting cure for about a year and I got 10% back. I got this symtom when I was 13, being a usless person in the future scares me and not being able to do an activity as I gets more dizzy easily is crazy.  The symptoms gets worst. Mine goes like this: As time goes by first my eyesight will get worst following with hearing loss but while losing some of my eyesight, it got sandy like layer that is hardly to be seen screening my eye. after that I got an extreme fatigue that made me tired and dmg on my body doesn't heal faster even though I'm young. I got bruise easily as well. you could get bloated body for a long time. being dizzy and having foggy head following that you feel like your not in your body completely for 24/7 is like hell. no one knows how it feels when it get worst. you need to control your health no matter what and don't lose from it. well for now try to press you stomach area with your finger if it's painful press about 30 min not too strong a weak one is okey if its too painful. This is just basic pressure but it's just helps you a bit for now. try to find a real oriental doctor not the pro but real one as they have different technique, that's like incorrect and correct way. real oriental doctors know the real way. byw my english aren't that good even studying is like hell for me. after getting cure your speech will get better like before. you won't feel extremely scared and your depression degree goes to a lower level.

    • NightDash
      NightDash

      Posted

      Oops... " Nobody knows how ti feels" not "No one" anyway don't lose.

    • NightDash
      NightDash

      Posted

      well I believe on God just why I didn't lose to my mentality and I got my father who goes around studying oriental doctor who cures me. He knows the right way unlike other oriental doctor but he still need experience. the reason why I'm telling you this is that I don't want anyone to suffer like me for a long years. I don't think anyone can handle it for a long time but the good thing is that they get scared than before so they don't kill themself. but you'll still get dull

      The organ of the human control everything. And stomach controls mental but not the causes. just why I told you press there for now until you find your real oriental doctor for yourself. it takes time to get cured it get longer based on how long you got it. Even mental disordered can be cured by real oriental doctor if that person was normal before without any surgery done. Oriental doctor technique have been long gone as the king kills them if they don't work right. they only work for the king and gets killed as well. You see I hate korea or china for not letting any talented person to get born they'll just get killed, king is absolute and greed will grow.  OH yeah I forgot to tell you you'll have upper back neck pain and later your lower back pain will get worst. well it could differ since I'm not sure if we're 100% same since How I eat and How I live differ so some symptoms can be different.

    • NightDash
      NightDash

      Posted

      Yes. you won't remember what you've done the past days. you'll also feel stupid too later on you'll get used to it and goes to a journey not caring anything anymore but yourself. your attitude gets weirder and weirder and thinks negetative everything as possible.

  • Noisy6996
    Noisy6996 TaylorMason

    Posted

    Soy is your issue. Soy and soy lethicin give me the same symptoms. Brainfog, short tem memory loss, panic attacks. My entire body was shutting down. Im guten and soy free and have a new life.
  • NZRecovery
    NZRecovery TaylorMason

    Posted

    Is a common feeling with all you guys confusion when it comes to recollection with thought?. What I mean is that you will become disorientated and thought will become jumbled. Like you will feel that anyone who says something to you is allways just saying that based on some predetermined motif or that it does'nt possses any meaning whatsoever. You feel as if none of it has purpose or any particular meaning because there are so many other meanings behind one particular meaning, like interpretation and drive towards particular thought dissapears. That could be co-relatent to feeling spacy, or any of the other "dissiociative" type symptons like brain fog and all that. Like the loop in which you once were so driven in has become lineal. 

  • lilly1408
    lilly1408 TaylorMason

    Posted

    It sounds like you have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. You seem to check out on most of the symptoms. You should definitly look into it. It could be your answer.
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