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Debilitating symptoms. Brain fog...extreme memory loss...spacey 24/7!

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TaylorMason
TaylorMason

The last year of my life has been a brutal one. At the age of 22, I am in the lowest of lows and I desperately need some help!

Here’s my tale:

About a year ago, a couple months after an extremely strenuous relationship, I began noticing that I was tired all the time…and all around, I wasn’t really satisfied. Don’t get me wrong, I still enjoyed my friends, and activities…but life just wasn’t as bright and vibrant anymore after a month of noticing this ever-present fatigue, it got a bit stronger. I would wake up each morning completely zombie-mode…and that feeling would remain throughout the entirety of my day, until my head hit my pillow that evening.

Initially, I suspected some form of sleeping disorder. I set up a sleep study, got my thyroid checked, ferritin levels, all the basics. Sleep study revealed I sleep just fine and all my other blood tests came back negative.

The fatigue and the weight of the world slowly got worse over the next handful of months, UNTIL I woke up one morning and everything escalated greatly. I felt completely stoned. I couldn’t think right. I couldn’t concentrate. I felt inebriated. I felt totally disconnected and spacey. I felt as though I had no control over myself. I lost drive and motivation. I lost a lot of confidence.  I always had an incredibly sharp memory. It was actually something well known about me to those in my family and friend circles. Yet, on this morning, almost all new information could not be retained. Things that happened earlier in the day, by evening, I felt they happened a day or two before. I could no longer recount the activities I took part in. This is possibly the worst of all the symptoms. The extreme short term memory. I have no context for time and I sort of feel like I’m just floating through life suffering.

For months I visited doctors getting tested by specialists. I visited a neurologist, infectious disease, I had an MRI, & I had about 20 different blood tests. NOTHING. My doctor literally said “I have no idea what this could be. I am beside myself” TOTES reassuring! I tried altering my diet entirely to organic and all natural. I continued my workouts and ran 15 miles a week. I tried sleeping even earlier. I tried all I could think of .

I have scoured the message boards and found a few people suffering from the same, but without answers.

I’m not sure if depression is the culprit, but depression sure has found its nasty venom-coated fangs into my veins. Tired, depressed, failed memory, no drive, scared…it’s no way to live. I want my life back.

PLEASE OFFER INSIGHT! I will be so grateful J

Sincerely,

Taylorsaurus Rex

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  • carole76433
    carole76433 TaylorMason

    Posted

    I to am suffering the same. I was diagnosed hypothyroidism started me on 50 mg and now they have put it up to 75mg as my blood count showed my thyroid still wasn't producing enough thyroxine.

    However even though I am now on a higher dose I'm very depressed it's an effort to get out of bed,tired all the time, brain fog most of the time,anxiety confusion, and so short tempered no patience headache and like you my life is just passing by and it's as if I'm not part of it? I wish I knew what mine is but my doctors are rubbish so I don't go now incase I have to!!!@

    Have you thought of asking your doctor for a blood test checking your T3 levels on a thyroid test they don't always check that? What about checking for fibromalgia ??? Or M.E?? Failing that it could be depression? But good luck hope you find out what's wrong?

    Kind RegardC

  • codyf
    codyf TaylorMason

    Posted

    I'm new here, and just wondering if anyone has found some insight? Thanks!!
  • casiodss
    casiodss TaylorMason

    Posted

    Hi, Im in the same situation. Extreme headaches, vision problems, cant remember most of what happened in the day and Im only 39. Now anxiety has started and is difficult to get out of the house. Im on amitrytiline now, tried others before but no success. Hope to find answers, I used to have a lot things to do, now I have no idea or the intention to do them because when I start doing something and cant finished got frustrated...
  • casiodss
    casiodss TaylorMason

    Posted

    100 percent with you, I want my life back, Have exactly the same symptoms. Any new updates? Treatment? Feeling better or at least in the path to recovery? Its got to be something to do, I refuse to stop my life now, got a lot of plans for the future but kind of need my memmory to remember them wink
  • ali555
    ali555 TaylorMason

    Posted

    Hello Taylor,

    Wondering if you still are feeling this way? the memory thing and derealization is something that is relieving to know other people have.

    used to remember everything, now cant remember things that happened 5 minutes ago. 23 years old so same age, wonder if it hits around this time.

    • ali555
      ali555 casiodss

      Posted

      only part thats unbearable- derealization
    • tim67087
      tim67087 ali555

      Posted

      I know how you feel, my memory is getting worse all the time. I have an appointment with a neurologist in December, I hate waiting so long.
  • dylan12268
    dylan12268 TaylorMason

    Posted

    Question, has anybody here had a hair mineral analysis.

    Metal toxicity buried deep inside can cause all sorts of problems look at the symptoms.

  • pamela51740
    pamela51740 TaylorMason

    Posted

    Sounds like depersonalization I've had it for over ten years and it's horrible :-(
  • casiodss
    casiodss TaylorMason

    Posted

    Hi Taylor, how are you? any new updates? Have you started feeling better?
  • Kaeby
    Kaeby TaylorMason

    Posted

    Hello Taylor, did you ever find out what was going on? I wanna know the difference between "brain fog" and depersonalization.
  • Rockers
    Rockers TaylorMason

    Posted

    I`m experiencing something similar. Started in December 2014, as if someone flipped a switch. All over sudden I got sensitive to light, especially fluoro light, head pressure that moves around, even though I had this already before the other symtoms started, then I got mini blackouts of my memory where I could not remeber what I was about to do, those moments lasted for less then a second but where noticable. Concentration is gone, find it really hard listening to someone speak to me, loud noise is real bad for me so is stress. My memory lapses became worse over the month making me fear having dementia. Now I got as well neck pain and pain that radiates into my right arm. Sometimes muscles twitching, have insomnia. I`ve been extremely tired for 3 years now by the way. Never felt refreshed after a good night of sleep.
    • dylan12268
      dylan12268 Rockers

      Posted

      Have you had any blood work done ?

      Or any tests at all?

    • Rockers
      Rockers dylan12268

      Posted

      Several times. Never any signs of anything wrong. Same for MRIs. Had 3 over the last 5 years. This is not the first time I had these symptoms. First time I had something similar 16 years ago after an argument with my wife to be. The again 8 years later all over sudden and then another episode in 2013. Each time symptoms got more pronounced. This time is the worst and last the longest. That`s why I get kind of scared. I have to say though, depression runs in my family, my father had depression, my older brother too. I suffer from OCD for at least 20 years and anxiety as well for at least 16 years, health anxiety is the most dominant. 
    • AWishForHealth
      AWishForHealth Rockers

      Posted

      Hi Rockers

      The way Taylor described his state of mind, is exactly what happens to me. I suffer from depression and have anxiety and OCD problems too. Could it be that we overheat our brain because of constant overthinking?

    • ana85762
      ana85762 Rockers

      Posted

      Rockers did you find anything that helps ?😯

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