Deep depression

Aw honey I'm so sorry you didn't find any consolation with your GP. On the bright side you have new meds which hopefully will give you some breathing space and help you to cope.

Depression and Anxiety Disorder are an illness and neither knows no boundries when it comes to age, social status or anything else. No on is immune.

You have to make a concerted effort to help yourself, not easy I know, and we here will help you along. Correct breathing techniques, resting and not pushing yourself too hard because that is stressful. It's baby steps, honey. You'll get further along the path to recovery that way.

If you can have a mindset that every mouthful of food you take is a step forward to recovery. It's the way I did it to gain weight because my weight loss frightened me and I looked terrible, not being big to begin with I looked anorexic.

I sat and chewed slowly. Didn't enjoy it at first, I must admit, because my appetite was zero. And I felt as though every mouthful was too much. But I persevered and finally, slowly but surely, I began to enjoy my food, regained my appetite and gained weight.

It's hard to be positive but being negative will drag you down. Don't feel hopeless. Be positive. Take control

You can do this!!! Believe, okay?

Hi Helen,

Thank you kindly for the reply I'm trying hard.

I know you are sweetie! I know, Don't try too hard, that's fighting and adding stress. If ever you need reassurance you can pm me

My CPN  recommended me to a  mental health day centre after an extensive course of CBT that had lasted seven years. The centre was really an eye opener. Everyone there helped eachother and if  you needed to talk or discuss problems it was shared by understanding, supporting members. We were lucky to have people who could deliver CBT in the day centre itself and that seemed to increase the support we were lacking in the NHS as most of one to one treatment was beginnng to rationed even then

I was a Volunteer in their Information Centre and my Jack Russel used to sit on my knee. People used to come in to see Pip and that seemed to break the ice and people also felt able to relate to the dog.

So if you can find a Centre in Nottingham that may give you that eye to eye support. People who suffer mental health problems seem to relate in a strong helpful way and the centres become a refuge from an unsupportave world.

When we had to move out of our home to here I had to stop attending as it was now forty miles away from where I used too live. The centre was a real miss, I made some wonderful friends there and even after three years I still miss the banter and undertanding of some wonderful people, patients in there own right. 

It may work for you something like that, talk to your GP Practice or your Local Library they may know where these centres are in your area

Citalopram is the drug I take, the same dose as you, and it seems good in my case. You will need to give it about four or five weeks to work well, so give it time and you will hopefully find it a good medication that will control your condition.

So if you need a chat we are always aroud, I generally appear at least once a day, so do not be a stranger.

Good Luck, Keep a hold

BOB

Thank you Bob,

The words are helping, I'm just scared I'll feel like this forever.

My worst fare is I'll stop thinking in this manner and that's when I'll get poorly and die.

I don't have the fair of dying by accident but I fear I'll get a serious illness that will slowly break me down until I'm gone.

I feel selfish on how I'm thinking becuase I'm sure people are in the position in live and would wish for what I have now.

You are not alone. When I was in my teens I would really concern myself that I would never see my twenty first birthday, of course I reached that milestone. I went mad and would swim three times a week to make sure I would be fit and would not die of a bad heart. I also used to go dancing at least twice a week to  have more exersise. This went on for ten years when I had a car accident and I slowed down I still was concerned and I would keep setting these targets for at least twenty years. T hen I realised I was disabled and I was still around

Hi Bob,

Thanks you again for your replies I'm sorry to hear that.

Your a very strong person. I hope I can get better so help others like you are now.

I'm scared every moment I have cancer or it's coming I can't eat but dam I'm sleeping.

I keep thinking if it comes I'll have to go. It's my time

From that time I was forty. Now I am sixty six this weekend, I worried my life away when I was younger, so what was the point I am still atound.

It is a natural problem been concerned when we are going to die, soon

I came to the point that what would I do if I was to die or know when my life was over, I could not do anything about it. We go when we go.

Mind with that attitude you make sure you wiil need to enjoy every second of time allowed to us and that is what I have done

Enjoy your life Do not worry we live in a veryinteresting world enjoy

BOB

Enjoy your life, My life has been very full, We are considering getting a power boat and we need courses to sale it, Life is an adventure Enjoy

Always around

BOB