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Depressed, falling to pieces. Somebody please listen...

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Tibidabo12
Tibidabo12

Hello, I dont expect anybody to truely care about me on here but i'm using it as a place to let out my thoughts. I feel trapped inside myself and lost.

I've been on the road to depression for a year now and feel i'm there. My fiancée knows, her family and my mum and dad. This hasn't really helped though. I'm battling a eating disorder also. I went to the doctors, I was referred to a mental health specialist but I didn't ring within 10 days so when I did ring they sent me away. I couldn't believe it.

I get teary and suicidal thoughts daily always wanting to leave this hell behind and think death is the only place I will find my peace. The only thing stopping me from taking this further is my love of my life who I cant put through the pain. I know she will feel worse afterwards then I do now. But the pain I feel is like something inside me trying to get out. This is not living. This is being. My parents think they hold all the cures and are unable to just listen to me.

I'm slowly crumbling as a person. I just want to hide.

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  • hypercat
    hypercat Tibidabo12

    Posted

    Hi I completely agree with going back to the doctors.   It is your choice whether or not to have meds - no one is going to 'force' them on you.   Also seek counselling.   If you had a physical illness would you turn down help?  Would you suffer through the pain when you can have relief?   Depression is just the same as any other illness,  sometimes you just need a little help.  Wouldn't it be worth it to start to feel better?  

    I do understand what you are saying and how you feel - I do truely but I am not sure you are going to get better without help.   You might do but why suffer in the meantime?   Get the number again and call within the 10 days.  Reach out for help please.   x

  • anne240
    anne240 Tibidabo12

    Posted

    I can assure you that I and many others on this forum care about you.  We care about each other.  We give support to each other because we know what depression feels like.  Please don't think nobody here cares.  We all do.

    Depression takes away so much from us.  We have to battle on.  Honestly we all know exactly what you are feeling now.  I have been there many times.  Been years and years I have battled depression, but I won't let it beat me.

    I am glad you are able to discuss it with those people closest to you.  It is not an illness to face alone.  We need all the support we can get.

    Please get on to the doctor again and ask for a new referral to the mental health team.  Keep asking for help.

    • Tibidabo12
      Tibidabo12 anne240

      Posted

      Thanks Anne. Its a deceiving illness. Your good days can make you believe everything is ok and maybe its going/gone. And then one small thing, like a puncture on the car or something out of the ordinary and everything just breaksdown mentally. Everything feels so hard. I will try the doctors again. Thanks,
  • millyimp_1322
    millyimp_1322 Tibidabo12

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    Dear Tibidabo12,

    I have been reading through all the lovely postings sent to you . I would agree with most of what the posters are saying to you about not being forced into taking prescibed medicaton,

    However it seem to have slipped the notice of these lovely people ,you say you do NOT trust Dr`s.

    It is also a fact ,good though some Dr`s are ,they only ever treat your symptoms,they don`t` ever look for and then begin to treat the root cause of the problem you are presenting them with .

    I know a bit about this too,because at different times ,they have either not connected with the problems of different problems my family had.

    On one occasion all the records of one of my family were lost and never recovered ,and similar things have occurred since then ,so my faith and trust in Dr`s is now very limited ,of course I know all are not the same ,however when you have these things happening more than the once /twice times,it does nothing to restore your trust in them .

    Myself ,I use complimentary remedies ,I do not advocate people not seeing their Dr`s,or to not use prescibed drugs ,after seeing their Dr,it has to be their own choice to do so.

    Dear new found friend ,all I can say is that I fully understand your reluctance ,I wish you and your Fiancee well, and as has been said ,please do keep in touch with us ,and if you do wish to chat in private ,then please message me .

    Take Care

    millyimp1322

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