Depression has gotten a lot worse. Considering ending my life
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Hey guys
my depression has been going on for the past 2 - 3 years or so for a large variety of reasons. I thought I could handle it, but I was wrong. I relied on certain friends to help me out, and they have all left me after I told them about my problems. Non of them have helped me at all.
In my last post, I spoke about how things might be getting better, but I was wrong. Everything that I try to do somehow backfires against me. I lost my job and haven't been able to get a new one since, and I've returned to my really bad drinking habbits to try and ease the stress. I'm 18 years old and don't feel that this is fair as I've always been nice to people and always been walked all over.
Financially, I'm a mess. Socially, I have no friends left and mentally I'm weak. Since all of this began, the thought of just simply ending my life quickly and easily has been in my head, but I've generally ignored the notion until recently. I just can't deal with this anymore. Everything I try to do, everyone I try and help, turns against me. I'm just fed up.
It's currently 11:15 pm. I'm planning on taking a long and far walk at 12 to think about everything. I'm not sure if I'll return from that walk or not. A large part of me wants to die just to get all of this over with already, but another part of me wants to keep fighting on in the hope that things get better; I just really don't think that they will.
Thanks for reading guys. I hope you all have happy lives and get past your anxiety/depression as no one deseveres to feel depressed.
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sam1231
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As you can see, I'm still here.
I had a lot of time to mull it over again in my head last night and you're all right, ending it isnt the answer, Its just really hard to keep going sometimes when youre desperatly trying to wait for things to get better.
Thank you all so much again, I really appreciate it =)
annie76135 sam1231
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jptown sam1231
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Be sure to associate yourself with new people who do not drink. Believe it or not, we can actually have a lot of fun sober. I discovered that for myself! If you have a physical addiction, then seek professional coaching to help in that part. But you can also take charge of yourself every day too in the choices that you decide to make on your NEW JOURNEY to find your best life.
I am serious about the vitamin/mineral/protein support for your body and mind. Alcohol destroys B vitamins and B vitamins are critical for your nervous system and brain function. Often called “the happy vitamin” Bcomplex will help you feel mentally happier and physically more energetic. I don't think I am allowed to suggest specific brands here, but be sure to use a top quality brand recommended by a naturopathic health care professional. Don't use the junk store brands. You also desperately need lots of protein (not a lot of red meat though)...the protein shakes can be a better source. And absolutely NO FAST FOOD. That stuff is literally toxic to your body and mind.
I hope this helps. Set it in your mind that you are starting your New Journey towards your Best Life NOW, and promise yourself to be true to yourself and make no excuses. Accept your mistakes when you stumble and learn from them, get back up, make new choices, and someday, you will find that YOU will be able to help others who are in the same trap find THEIR freedom, and find their best lives too. Helping others is the best reward in life and one of our most important purposes in living on this planet.
deirdre._03652 sam1231
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