Diagnosis, feel like my life is over. MILD SYMPTOMS
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I have officially lost my faith in the healthcare system.
I have been told by 5 health care professionals that I don't have herpes.
I finally managed to get a swab done on a fissure or 'crack' that appeared just next to my clitoris - this was my only symptom really.
The results have come back (PCR) and not only do i have HSV1 but also HSV2!!
My life is officially over. I've called in sick to work.
How am I supposed to get passed this?
My symptoms are SO mild. Like SO mild. NO fever. No illness. No tingling. Just fissures in the skin and a few red blotches, that's it.
And now i'm limbered with this disease forver. I feel disgusting. Noone will ever love me again.
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nikki1230 Greentea14
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louise123456 Greentea14
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Similarly I didn't have fever or feel ill, was sore around the actual site of the sores and had swollen glands but other than that felt perfect. Isn't it odd how something so life affecting happens and we didn't even feel so bad. To be honest I'm absolutely worn out now so it's taken its toll more so after the outbreak.
I know you are in the Uk and guess it's similar to here, there's no sti dedicated counsellors or anything. I went to a counsellor last week and last night who i had been to before years back, she's not specialised in that area but at the end of the day it's not the infection that is the issue, it's how people see it, how we see it, how we see ourselves etc... It may be worth going to see someone for a chat?
I'm still similar to you in that I can't see anyone ever wanting to come near me sexually again, which therefor means no kids/marriage etc... But even if that's the case, what are we to do.. Curl up and not make the most of our situation? No way. I did that for the first week then tried to surround myself with friends and family to remind me that I'm still a valid person who is loved by others, even if not a male partner. Do nice things, go for nice food, plan something to take your mind off it - I'm planning a holiday to Thailand at the moment. It's always there though in my mind too, even out for a drink on Friday night I was like, what's the point any more. But we still have to live and do little things that make us happy.
I really empathise, I know exactly what you are going trough. Have you anyone to talk to?
FelizCastus louise123456
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TLAN louise123456
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louise123456 TLAN
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TLAN louise123456
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In the past three months I've gone from being a happy, confident woman who could take on anything. Now I'm just a mess, crying, isolated. I feel life is over.
louise123456 TLAN
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Have you a good group of friends? Some days it drains me totally to spend time with my friends or Mum or nephews and pretend like life is still normal, but it's what's needed to try feel like yourself again. If you lock yourself away with your thoughts and regrets you'll never move on from it. When you feel stronger you need to try get out a little bit and talk to people and do things for yourself, things that you like doing for you and try take some small pleasure in any little thing. Do you have any interest that gets you out and about that you can throw yourself into?
Greentea14 louise123456
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One minute I feel fine - it's just a skin condition, right? And my outbreak was mild so fingers crossed bodes well for the future..
And then I think ABOUT the future, how I feel noone will ever love me again, i'll never be able to have care free sex again, i've lost my bliss in ignorance.
It makes me sad, because If i was to meet someone new, they wouldn't be able to tell me for sure that they DON'T have herpes, would they? Because a lot of people are aysmptomatic right?
So there are loads of people walking around saying they're std free when in fact they don't actually know that for sure... but here i am, having to disclose it forever because I had a mild symptom that i decded to get swabbed.
I wish i never went for the swab test. One hsv i could cope with, but both?
I have my parents and my best friend to help me with this but noone can actually take it away and now this is my life forever.
I feel like a ffraud with a disgusting dirty secret. Sorry to vent.
That's so weird - i'm planning a trip to Thailand in November! Herpes sufferers unite hahaha.
Greentea14 TLAN
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louise123456 Greentea14
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I don't think that's it's all too common to have zero symptoms for years and years if you have contracted it. Certainly possible, but from what I've read people have had mild outbreaks and just not realised it, so that's probably more so why people are wandering around oblivious. I also wish I never went to get tested. I mean it would have cleared up itself and I could have gone about life. But at the end of the day we now know what we know, and I'm NEVER going to do what was done to me and hide it from someone on purpose, it's highly unfair. So therefore God only knows if I'll ever settle down with a man. Which is a miserable thought... But what else can we do but keep living and trying to find happiness in other things, it's that's or utter misery.
I would also feel like a fraud, had this conversation at my counselling session last night when she says look you can't tell every guy you go on a few dates with, you have to wait long enough to see if either/both of you even want to get to a longer term thing. I would just feel that after a few dates maybe they should know then, because would we be reeling them in to wait longer. I don't know, but that's down the line for me at the moment anyway, need to get myself strong and together before even thinking about that!
FelizCastus Greentea14
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Greentea14 FelizCastus
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Is there anyway to find out which type I got first?
I only noticed symptoms after receiving oral sex from one guy.
Is it possible I had hsv1 genitally, and then aquired hsv2? or vice versa?
I dont understand why the symptoms were so so mild.
FelizCastus Greentea14
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